Shaking An Urge
NobleCause, is it possible that at some level you're resisting because you feel that quitting is being forced on you by circumstances and it's not really what you want to do? It almost strikes me that the stubborn part of your mind is in conflict with the common sense part. The common sense part builds and achieves so that the stubborn part can come along and tear it all down. You need to strengthen the common sense part and come to a place where you're at peace with yourself. When you can truely accept that what is, is and that the past is done and can not be changed, only then will you be able to put the stubborn part to rest as it will no longer have a purpose.
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NobleCause, is it possible that at some level you're resisting because you feel that quitting is being forced on you by circumstances and it's not really what you want to do? It almost strikes me that the stubborn part of your mind is in conflict with the common sense part.
This sort of strife is likely going to be a long term issue for me and will demand a pretty fundamental shift to fix. At 109 days into this, it seems that I'm only just beginning to uncover the fault lines.
As far as the wanting to vs. having to quit construct, the best I can say is that I desperately want to be content, at peace, fulfilled in some way in this lifetime. To get there, it would seem that I have to be sober.
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All I can is that drinking just won't do anything at all to help your feelings of lack of control. Getting sober won't either. But being sober and somehow trying to deal with your situation is the only thing that's going to help you.
Good luck!
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