starlite dawn

I am starlite dawn. I came here along time ago. I am still looking for some help.

starlite dawn

Ok, I am on board now. I have been trying all day to get back on here. I guess I finally made it.

I am struggling with why I drink. I seem to feel that if I could figure out why........I could stop. Maybe I am wrong here.

I just know I need some serious help. I am drinking and losing some major hours of my life. I don't remember so many things. I think this is not good.

I have aged a 100 years since I was last here. I just so don't understand so much about any of this.

I need help bad....

Dee74

welcome back starlite dawn

What help have you had so far? what things have you tried?

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starlite dawn

Honestly, nothing Dee. I did search for online meetings this morning and I did find a local meeting place where I live. I did make a great effort to get back on this site. It is a good site with tons of help available and I do know this. That is about it.

For today...........I have prayed a great deal.

That is all I have done, other than beat myself to a pulp.........LOL

SSIL75

I did that, too. If I could just figure out WHY then I could treat THAT and keep drinking lol.

I drank because I'm an alcoholic. Of course I have other issues, trauma, neuroses. We all do. But drinking? That was as simple as alcoholism.

CarolD

When I kept drinking after I wanted to quit....I considered I was an alcoholic.

Yes I then found my local aA meetings and got involved with learning how to live sober....

Welcome back...

doggonecarl

Here's a thought. Quit drinking first, then do your figuring. You wouldn't believe how much more insight you'll have sober.

Welcome and good luck.

jen7916

I agree with everyone else, just get sober first then try to address the issue of why you drink. Personally, I find it helpful to see a therapist as she's helping me dig into the underlying issues, but I know that's not for everyone. If you're open to it though, it might help you a great deal...especially once you identify the triggers that make you want to drink. Good luck!

sugarbear1

AA works for me. Search aa online chatroom. Read sober stories on this site.
search desert in the sand aa speakers, Bill W. is on tbere as are others.
try several aa in person meetings. There are other programs, too! Stick here and get awesome support!

Don't worry about why, that will be revealed later!

Terminally Unique

Quit first, then worry about issues or underlying causes. The addiction takes on a life of its own after a while, and any original reasons for starting to drink become largely irrelevant. If you have not done so, please read "Under the Influence" by James Milam ($8 or free at most public libraries) to learn more about how this usually progresses.