Gary2140

I messed up and bought a six pack of my favorite beer last last night after feeling sorry for myself.

I was about a week sober before that. Some of you know I've been an alcoholic for 15 years.

Back on the wagon, or off - I forget which one it is!


Later,
Gary

Mesa, AZ

sugarbear1

It took me 25 years to accept then surrender.... I was totally emotionally empty inside. I don't suggest you follow my path, I missed a lot of LIFE in those 25 years!

Welcome back! Get to a meeting and listen with an open mind....
Peace and Love

walkertall

Alcohol will kick your butt time and time again. I quit messing with it because it was always the winner. Don't drink......problem solved

bigguyslimm

Stay strong. Trust me the longer you go sober, the better you feel. Best of luck to you.

recoverywfaith

Back....you never have to go back out. I have relapses in my history as well.


Don't take the first drink...think the drink thru to the consequences...take it one day at at time...keep reading/posting. Glad you are here. Have you also considered AA?

Gwizz

Yes it will if your a very weak person and always put your positive energy into negative thoughts.
Alcohol does not always win, sometimes its a stronger person kicking the alcohols butt!!

MycoolFitz

I was up and down in and out 45 years. You can stay stopped and have a 30 year head start on me. Day one and optimistic is good. Keep it going.

rws177

Winning over anything in life isn’t about being successful your first try, it’s about getting up and continuing to fight despite being knocked down or slipping. Congrats on making the decision to push forward!

TheEnd

So true, especially in this battle. However, when you get back up to fight you must have a new strategy, the old one didn't work.

Zebra1275

So what's your plan to stay sober this time? You gotta change something up everytime you relapse.

CarolD

welcome back...

I did return to drinking after my decision to quit....I can tell you it was a no win deal in so many ways.
Good to know you are off to a fresh start..

Please take the time to read this..it's from the book that convinced me to finally quit.
While not everything pertained to me...it certainly opened my eyes.
especially the part that discusses why I no longer processed alcohol normally.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

tooling

I guess the good thing was you was only 1 week into it.

I had plenty of false starts. It comes with the territory. Eventually I asked myself who owns who. I decided it was me in charge and quit.

abc

Keep trying Gary! Beating a psychological addiction is like mind over matter. It basically requires you to learn magic. But some people on this forum have learned magic so you probably can too.

Gary2140

Wow, thanks for the feedback. I feel grateful to have this community. I'm still sober - 3 days now - hanging on the wagon for dear life - lol.

I never tried AA. It's hard to drive by all the liquor stores and supermarkets to get to one. That's the truth. When 5pm rolls around, booze is the only thing on my mind.

Thanks to you all. I'll consider AA again and stay sober. I need some type of plan after all.

Gary2140

Still sober, drinking tons of water and eating healthy.

skunkape

Good Job Gary! We can always lift up the sober flag and advance it through the battlefield again. I'm fighting the good fight alongside with you brother.

amandaw

Congratulations Gary! I'm starting day 1....again. I still haven't made it past day 4! This is going to be the time I do it, though!

MrDavid

Welcome back Gary...

What matters most of all Gary, is that you're back. And I Hope you're back for good. It took me over 20+ years to get the first step and another 10 more for good measure. Something, most of us know all too well. I hope your newfound sobriety lasts just as long. ODAAT.....

~God bless~

Adisa1101

gary,
hang in there. i know how you feel. i relapsed a handful of times after coming out of rehab. sobriety has been the most difficult thing ive ever gone through. and i thought rehab was bad. give yourself a break though. because its not easy. im learning to take comfort small victories. if i didnt drink today, victory. calling my sponsor when i really dont want to, victory. find your victories gary. believe me, they are there.