Lily

Great Post,

I know this is not the AA forum, but Alcoholics, but since I have an HP, I confide in him. 1 I confess the thought, 2 renounce the thought. Meaning now I know it has been forgiven so I no longer will re-visit in my mind. If I hear a song that makes me long for the "good ole days" which actually were not good and I can not go back to anyway, i change the station. I take my thought captive the best I can.

I have 7 months now I am learning to not entertain the thoughts anymore.

eJoshua

I could have written your post! I'm 26, and although alcohol never caused me as intense health problems as it seems to have caused you, I too spent a lot of time relapsing, hiding booze, making poor choices, etc the past two years. I've been sober now since April 12, 2011.

I highly recommend working some sort of program. I would not have been sober as long as I have been without the support of the guys in my step group, my therapist, psychiatrist. You've done well to abstain as long as you have -- I would encourage you to work on the underlying issues that caused you to drink in the first place.

Good luck, and congrats on 88 days!

Snicklefritz

I sometimes liken the fantasy of drinking to dealing with sadness. If I want a drink I realize its just a feeling that will pass momentarily and I just have to let myself feel that way temporarily.

sugarbear1

I went to aa at 25 and fought it.

I am 50 (what?) And have 76 days

Yes! I wish i were in YOUR shoes!

Stick with aa.