Today is...
Today is...
6 months! ^-^;. I thought I'd be ecstatic...jubilant, over the moon...then go celebrate with a beer (JUST KIDDING!). In all honesty...I am overwhelmingly grateful and humbled. Grateful is quite obvious but humbled by the amount of support that is out here both in just the strength exuded by everyone and the active support back from everyone. I was almost fired back in January from missing too much work due to hangovers (honesty...honesty). I had a heart to heart with my boss and told him straight up what the deal was. Since then, I have been given a $1 million a year in revenue project that has some pretty major capital equipment associated with it, finalized my divorce (alcoholic ex too), lost 30 lbs, worked through some very severe emotional and physical abuse and underlying problems associated with that, and connected back with some people I hadn't in a while. I still feel empty on certain days, but not because there's no alcohol. I know I will always be a slave if I let myself under its control again.
I have a very long way to go (we are always working on things...right?) but I am so thankful for having made it this far. I feel proud of what I have accomplished on many levels and that's saying a lot as I am never satisfied with what I do and feel it's never enough.
I lurk more than I post and just wanted to say thank you to everyone who posts on here. Everything is super insightful and helpful. Keep up the fight for it will never give you a break and will fight to rear it's ugly head.
I have a very long way to go (we are always working on things...right?) but I am so thankful for having made it this far. I feel proud of what I have accomplished on many levels and that's saying a lot as I am never satisfied with what I do and feel it's never enough.
I lurk more than I post and just wanted to say thank you to everyone who posts on here. Everything is super insightful and helpful. Keep up the fight for it will never give you a break and will fight to rear it's ugly head.
Originally Posted by lotusblossom021;
I still feel empty on certain days.
Spiritual solutions have been used by mankind since the beginning... No, not religion, and I'm not a bible thumper or anything like that....religion was invented as a way to conceptualize the spiritual.... Find a concept that resonates with you... you may find the antidote there.
Congratulations on 6 months... Keep coming back!
Congrats LB!
I'm about 19 months sober and I don't always feel good either, but I'm no longer a slave to alcohol.
Things are getting better in my life too and part of the reason is I finally got honest with myself and everyone else.
They say the truth will set you free, but it hurts like heck
Keep up the good work.
Kjell~
I'm about 19 months sober and I don't always feel good either, but I'm no longer a slave to alcohol.
Things are getting better in my life too and part of the reason is I finally got honest with myself and everyone else.
They say the truth will set you free, but it hurts like heck
Keep up the good work.
Kjell~
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I showed up at work today with many things on my mind. You acheiving 6 months put a spark in this otherwise normal day. See, for me it's being able to watch others recover that puts my recovery into perspective. Way to go on 6 months.
Thanks everyone for the wonderfully kind words!! .
And quite an odd thought that I could "help someone" and "be an inspiration". Makes me feel even better that even in the anonymity of the internet there is still so much to be gleaned. Happy Monday to everyone!
And quite an odd thought that I could "help someone" and "be an inspiration". Makes me feel even better that even in the anonymity of the internet there is still so much to be gleaned. Happy Monday to everyone!
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