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Old 07-15-2011, 07:11 AM
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Today is...

6 months! ^-^;. I thought I'd be ecstatic...jubilant, over the moon...then go celebrate with a beer (JUST KIDDING!). In all honesty...I am overwhelmingly grateful and humbled. Grateful is quite obvious but humbled by the amount of support that is out here both in just the strength exuded by everyone and the active support back from everyone. I was almost fired back in January from missing too much work due to hangovers (honesty...honesty). I had a heart to heart with my boss and told him straight up what the deal was. Since then, I have been given a $1 million a year in revenue project that has some pretty major capital equipment associated with it, finalized my divorce (alcoholic ex too), lost 30 lbs, worked through some very severe emotional and physical abuse and underlying problems associated with that, and connected back with some people I hadn't in a while. I still feel empty on certain days, but not because there's no alcohol. I know I will always be a slave if I let myself under its control again.

I have a very long way to go (we are always working on things...right?) but I am so thankful for having made it this far. I feel proud of what I have accomplished on many levels and that's saying a lot as I am never satisfied with what I do and feel it's never enough.

I lurk more than I post and just wanted to say thank you to everyone who posts on here. Everything is super insightful and helpful. Keep up the fight for it will never give you a break and will fight to rear it's ugly head.
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Old 07-15-2011, 07:27 AM
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Originally Posted by lotusblossom021;
I still feel empty on certain days.
We all do, alcoholics, recovered alcoholics, non-alcoholics.... Part of life, really. The difference for me was that I used to change that feeling with alcohol or pills... Maybe it was that way for you. It's what I did to change that feeling, or eliminate feeling all together.

Spiritual solutions have been used by mankind since the beginning... No, not religion, and I'm not a bible thumper or anything like that....religion was invented as a way to conceptualize the spiritual.... Find a concept that resonates with you... you may find the antidote there.

Congratulations on 6 months... Keep coming back!
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Old 07-15-2011, 07:28 AM
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Congratulations on 6 months! I find that gratitude is key to my contented sobriety.
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Old 07-15-2011, 07:39 AM
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Congradulations and thanks for helping lead the way for others.
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Old 07-15-2011, 08:20 AM
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Congratulations! 6 months is terrific. Keep up the good work.


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Old 07-15-2011, 08:43 AM
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:day1 Congrats!!!
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Old 07-15-2011, 08:46 AM
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Congrats LB!

I'm about 19 months sober and I don't always feel good either, but I'm no longer a slave to alcohol.

Things are getting better in my life too and part of the reason is I finally got honest with myself and everyone else.

They say the truth will set you free, but it hurts like heck

Keep up the good work.

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Old 07-15-2011, 08:52 AM
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Wow..congrats to you, what a great post! SO happy for you.
Thanks to Mark, too...gave me somethin to think about.
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Old 07-15-2011, 09:09 AM
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Congrats on the 6 months!!!
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Old 07-15-2011, 10:49 AM
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Good to know of your progress....

My action for that Blah feeling....pray and go find someone needing my assistance...
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Old 07-15-2011, 11:28 AM
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I showed up at work today with many things on my mind. You acheiving 6 months put a spark in this otherwise normal day. See, for me it's being able to watch others recover that puts my recovery into perspective. Way to go on 6 months.
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Old 07-15-2011, 02:17 PM
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Congratulations on 6 months!
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Old 07-15-2011, 02:20 PM
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congrats! blah feeling or not you are an inspiration to me.

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Old 07-15-2011, 02:33 PM
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Congratulations LotusBlossom

I agree than everyone has blah days - alcoholic or not
Like Carol, I find doing something for someone else helps me greatly in those times

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Old 07-15-2011, 02:37 PM
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Awesome!! Keep at it!

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Old 07-15-2011, 03:07 PM
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Well done. I hope to follow in your footsteps. I am glad you are still able to make a better contribution to the success of your company.
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Old 07-15-2011, 11:09 PM
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congratulations 6 months is a huge effort, accomplishment and commitment. Well done!
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Old 07-18-2011, 07:35 AM
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Thanks everyone for the wonderfully kind words!! .
And quite an odd thought that I could "help someone" and "be an inspiration". Makes me feel even better that even in the anonymity of the internet there is still so much to be gleaned. Happy Monday to everyone!
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