don't understand!!
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don't understand!!
Don't understand this...
My body seems to be working in reverse.
I seem to have done better with this in
the first three weeks.(not drinking)
This past weekend and last week has been horrible for me....
I'm having panic attacks and I seem to cry at the drop of a hat about everything.
Is this normal?? Or is my body telling me that this is the most normal it has been in years?And maybe I just dont know what normal is???
This is really getting to me...and I just don't want to SNAP.Is this semi normal,
or is it just me?Maybe I'm loosing my mind.
LOL.
I have wanted a drink so bad in the past three days that it has taken every ounce
of energy I have not to.
So I guess my question is....has anyone eles gone through this?Does it only get worse?Does this ever go away?
HELP!!!!! Betty
My body seems to be working in reverse.
I seem to have done better with this in
the first three weeks.(not drinking)
This past weekend and last week has been horrible for me....
I'm having panic attacks and I seem to cry at the drop of a hat about everything.
Is this normal?? Or is my body telling me that this is the most normal it has been in years?And maybe I just dont know what normal is???
This is really getting to me...and I just don't want to SNAP.Is this semi normal,
or is it just me?Maybe I'm loosing my mind.
LOL.
I have wanted a drink so bad in the past three days that it has taken every ounce
of energy I have not to.
So I guess my question is....has anyone eles gone through this?Does it only get worse?Does this ever go away?
HELP!!!!! Betty
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Oh! Betty , I felt the same way but mine came a week earlier than yours ! 
gross isn't it ? have you rung your Sponser ? I did, and she reassured me that it was just that cos I had drunk to alleviate these feelings for so long , they had never got this far , and that feeling like this was a new experience for me ! She got that right !
I found that I just had to " go with the flow " I blubbered, went for walks , posted here , drank herbal tea , paced , went to a couple of meetings , but the upshot was , " this too passed " !
She also advised me to remember my last drunk , ( not too hard to do ! lol) and how I would feel if I drank again! ALSO to think only of today ! not , as in my case , court ect !
Hang in there girl!
Thinking ofyou
HUGXX and LUV
Lee
gross isn't it ? have you rung your Sponser ? I did, and she reassured me that it was just that cos I had drunk to alleviate these feelings for so long , they had never got this far , and that feeling like this was a new experience for me ! She got that right ! I found that I just had to " go with the flow " I blubbered, went for walks , posted here , drank herbal tea , paced , went to a couple of meetings , but the upshot was , " this too passed " !
She also advised me to remember my last drunk , ( not too hard to do ! lol) and how I would feel if I drank again! ALSO to think only of today ! not , as in my case , court ect !
Hang in there girl!
Thinking ofyou
HUGXX and LUV
Lee
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Lee,
Thanks!!! Im glad it is normal,felt like I was really loosing it.
Unfortunately I don't have a sponsor...
have not been to a meeting.
I know I should have went a long time ago....but I haven't.
I have this thing about being around alot of people,I'm not sure what it is
but it makes me a nervous wreck.And
I really need to go.I seem to find every excuse in the book.
Thank you so much for your advice!!
And yes.....all I do is think about my last drunk............................
I dont want to ever go there again!!
Thanks again
hugs to you!! Betty
Thanks!!! Im glad it is normal,felt like I was really loosing it.
Unfortunately I don't have a sponsor...
have not been to a meeting.
I know I should have went a long time ago....but I haven't.
I have this thing about being around alot of people,I'm not sure what it is
but it makes me a nervous wreck.And
I really need to go.I seem to find every excuse in the book.
Thank you so much for your advice!!
And yes.....all I do is think about my last drunk............................
I dont want to ever go there again!!
Thanks again
hugs to you!! Betty
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(((Betty)))
you asked..."So I guess my question is....has anyone eles gone through this?Does it only get worse?Does this ever go away?"
Yes I did... No it did not... For me absolutely.
The answer/solution is to stay sober...your emotions will level off. My long term depression left about 2/3 months...has never returned.
My obsession for alcohol God removed...4/5 years after I got sober. Azp! Never returned.
You can do this Betty...Never Give Up!
Yes I did... No it did not... For me absolutely.
The answer/solution is to stay sober...your emotions will level off. My long term depression left about 2/3 months...has never returned.
My obsession for alcohol God removed...4/5 years after I got sober. Azp! Never returned.
You can do this Betty...Never Give Up!
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LOL@Betty , my sister in crime !
I had that thing re crowds too, when I went to my first meeting , ( I was picked up by an AA person) I was sooo scared and anxious ! I sidled in the door , and sat on the seat very near the door , with clenched hands , and sweaty palms ! lol
Amazingly enough, nobody ( I thought ) seemed to notice ! and I zoomed outta there as soon as I could , and waited outside , feeling very lost and embarrassed ! Thank God for the lovely people there ! They did not push my boundaries , just shook my hand when they left , and wished me well! Very wise they were
These people have now become my firm friends , and I feel so accepted and safe , in AA meetings . They never pushed me , just welcomed me , in my own time , I will be forever grateful to them!
You will know when you are ready , but I do encourage you to go, having my sponser has been the best thing I have ever had in my life !
Many HUGX g/f
Lee
I had that thing re crowds too, when I went to my first meeting , ( I was picked up by an AA person) I was sooo scared and anxious ! I sidled in the door , and sat on the seat very near the door , with clenched hands , and sweaty palms ! lol
Amazingly enough, nobody ( I thought ) seemed to notice ! and I zoomed outta there as soon as I could , and waited outside , feeling very lost and embarrassed ! Thank God for the lovely people there ! They did not push my boundaries , just shook my hand when they left , and wished me well! Very wise they were
These people have now become my firm friends , and I feel so accepted and safe , in AA meetings . They never pushed me , just welcomed me , in my own time , I will be forever grateful to them!
You will know when you are ready , but I do encourage you to go, having my sponser has been the best thing I have ever had in my life !
Many HUGX g/f
Lee
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Carol,Thanks also for your input.
I would truly be lost if it werent for my new family here!!!It will be sooooo nice
when i can actually feel the way you do.
And I cant wait to get off this roller coaster
ride!!!
Thanks......and hugs to you Carol
Betty
((Lee))
LOL Are we twins???
How ironic.
Thanks again for your kind words.
I'm sure I will get up the courage to finally go.It just takes me time.
I'm not a very strong person.But I'm
slowly getting better.
Bless both of you!!!!!!
I'm glad to have you,Betty
I would truly be lost if it werent for my new family here!!!It will be sooooo nice
when i can actually feel the way you do.
And I cant wait to get off this roller coaster
ride!!!
Thanks......and hugs to you Carol
Betty
((Lee))
LOL Are we twins???
How ironic.
Thanks again for your kind words.
I'm sure I will get up the courage to finally go.It just takes me time.
I'm not a very strong person.But I'm
slowly getting better.
Bless both of you!!!!!!
I'm glad to have you,Betty
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Hi Betty,
i don't think you are losing your mind! I've heard this can happen. A person in my support group had the same experience - at 35 day sober she had cravings that were more difficult to manage than the first week! I'm getting close to 30, and kind of dreading it. I guess I'll have to be prepared that I may have worse cravings. Esp. with the holidays coming close.
Take care, you are doing fine!
Jay
i don't think you are losing your mind! I've heard this can happen. A person in my support group had the same experience - at 35 day sober she had cravings that were more difficult to manage than the first week! I'm getting close to 30, and kind of dreading it. I guess I'll have to be prepared that I may have worse cravings. Esp. with the holidays coming close.
Take care, you are doing fine!
Jay
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Jay,
How many days sober for you?
I hope I'm doing ok...sometimes I wonder.
But I've been trying to keep busy.
I have never read so much in my life.
You take care also.
Thanks!!
Betty
How many days sober for you?
I hope I'm doing ok...sometimes I wonder.
But I've been trying to keep busy.
I have never read so much in my life.
You take care also.
Thanks!!
Betty
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