Day 24. The Swamp is Drained.
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Day 24. The Swamp is Drained.
Days 17-23 of sobriety seemed particulary diffucult- decidedly more difficult than days 1-5. I am no longer pushing thru physical symptoms and am forced to confront the emotional and psychological efffects of floating thru 15 years on a swamp of alcohol, enjoying the ride but never contemplating what I was forgetting under the murky surface.
The swamp seems fully drained now, and I plod amongst the relics and shambles of ignored relationships, family matters, business issues, and pointed internal conflicts. The "foggles" I wore for so long are off and the clarity is mesmorizing, almost intimidating.
I can see why people in AA mark day thirty with a chip. That's when the work of recovery really begins. I just have a glimpse of it a week or so early.
The swamp seems fully drained now, and I plod amongst the relics and shambles of ignored relationships, family matters, business issues, and pointed internal conflicts. The "foggles" I wore for so long are off and the clarity is mesmorizing, almost intimidating.
I can see why people in AA mark day thirty with a chip. That's when the work of recovery really begins. I just have a glimpse of it a week or so early.
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I think the best plan is to do our best from today forwards. The past is gone, although we can try to make amends as the AA steps say.
I know this is much easier for me to say than for you to do.
Congrats on your sober time. Keep it up!
I know this is much easier for me to say than for you to do.
Congrats on your sober time. Keep it up!
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Keep it going !! This is a perfect time to think about what is truely important to you in life and see if you think alcohol is really going to help you get there or maintain what you have. I found that right around the corner is complacency brought on by confidence. Confidence with not drinking is great, but it can also try to change your thinking that you can handle a few drinks. Fight this with all your strength and you will be better for it. I foound I needed to get over that 30-60 day hump in order to get it all out of my system and really appreciate sobriety and focus on what is important. Good luck
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