I need to get out of myself
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Join Date: Apr 2011
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I need to get out of myself
Hi all, a newcomer here,
I'm 24 and It's been quite a few years I have an attitude problem with alcohol. I'm not physically dependant, but there are times I crave to get out of my mind, my constant, sometimes torturing thoughts, mostly my boring and indifferent reality, feel a little more, a little different. A little free.
I've been doing other stuff too, pot mostly, been on antidepressants for some years, but it's been a while since I kept myself away from them.
First I always feel euphoric but then all the rage and disappointment bursts out. I'm sick of hurting people who love me, damaging my relationships with others. I'm so embarassed I can't face my family and the hole on the wall reminds me of my of the last incident. All this anger comes out every single time, but never for good.
I hate to say I'm sorry, because I know it's most likely to happen again. I can't find anything else that excites me, and this search is exhausting.
Good luck to you all.
I'm 24 and It's been quite a few years I have an attitude problem with alcohol. I'm not physically dependant, but there are times I crave to get out of my mind, my constant, sometimes torturing thoughts, mostly my boring and indifferent reality, feel a little more, a little different. A little free.
I've been doing other stuff too, pot mostly, been on antidepressants for some years, but it's been a while since I kept myself away from them.
First I always feel euphoric but then all the rage and disappointment bursts out. I'm sick of hurting people who love me, damaging my relationships with others. I'm so embarassed I can't face my family and the hole on the wall reminds me of my of the last incident. All this anger comes out every single time, but never for good.
I hate to say I'm sorry, because I know it's most likely to happen again. I can't find anything else that excites me, and this search is exhausting.
Good luck to you all.
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HI and welcome!
Not sure what you want to do about the problem? For me, getting sober was only a small part of it. The big part was figuring out who I was and who I wanted to be. Becoming the person I want to be means that I don't need mood alternating substances to enjoy life.
Good luck to you!
Not sure what you want to do about the problem? For me, getting sober was only a small part of it. The big part was figuring out who I was and who I wanted to be. Becoming the person I want to be means that I don't need mood alternating substances to enjoy life.
Good luck to you!
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Welcome to SR....
Have you considered seeing a counselor about your
destructive rages? that might be a good starting point.
Have you considered seeing a counselor about your
destructive rages? that might be a good starting point.
Last edited by CarolD; 04-25-2011 at 02:42 PM. Reason: ditto correction
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Join Date: Apr 2011
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Every time i drink I end up being a monster.
So the obvious solution is not to drink. I'm kind of jealous of peaceful drinkers.
However, I doubt I'll find anything to balance the lack of alcohol, because I've tried to stay away and at some point I gave up because of the boredom and disappointment.
How do I fight that? Well, I try every day but nothing seems to come up.
I was maybe looking for someone with the same aggression problem, but thanks for your post and your welcoming
carold: currently seeing one, and going for the 5th session. I've met a bunch and don't have much faith in them, I have to admit.
So the obvious solution is not to drink. I'm kind of jealous of peaceful drinkers.
However, I doubt I'll find anything to balance the lack of alcohol, because I've tried to stay away and at some point I gave up because of the boredom and disappointment.
How do I fight that? Well, I try every day but nothing seems to come up.
I was maybe looking for someone with the same aggression problem, but thanks for your post and your welcoming
carold: currently seeing one, and going for the 5th session. I've met a bunch and don't have much faith in them, I have to admit.
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Join Date: May 2008
Location: Detroit, MI
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Originally Posted by mynameismyname 
...I was maybe looking for someone with the same aggression problem, but thanks for your post and your welcoming
I had to learn a whole new set of coping skills to deal with my alcohol-ISM. Recovery involves a lot more than not drinkin.
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welcome mynameismyname
I was a mostly peaceful drinker, but I could be obnoxious and sometimes full of rage too.
Since I got sober that problem - and a whole lot of others - have righted themselves, with a little work from me.
I think it's a good choice for you to be here and thinking about your drinking
Welcome
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I was a mostly peaceful drinker, but I could be obnoxious and sometimes full of rage too.
Since I got sober that problem - and a whole lot of others - have righted themselves, with a little work from me.
I think it's a good choice for you to be here and thinking about your drinking
Welcome
D
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I didn't drink a lot and I didn't drink for very long but I drank enough to have a problem.
For other health reasons I should not drink and I did it anyway.
I'm so glad I don't have to live that way anymore because I didn't like who I was when I was drinking.
For other health reasons I should not drink and I did it anyway.
I'm so glad I don't have to live that way anymore because I didn't like who I was when I was drinking.
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