yukonm

They are the AA Intergroup...they should have someone there who can talk to you....isn't that what you want??

Scrubmuncher

The doc is coming out, gunna sedate me I think before I have a full blown breakdown.

Scrubmuncher

This has got to go down as one of my worst days as far as far as delusion goes, I have zero grasp on reality right now, people places occurrences all are happening to me now, no matter how long ago the realy did happen, if at all. My vision is blurred, I can't walk straight, I want to break down crying but I have no tears. I can't do this existence any more, life is killing me.

smacked

It's good you're getting medical attention. Let us know how you're doing when you're feeling better.

yukonm

Glad you are going to be receiving some medical help.

Scrubmuncher

Diazepam,,, well that'll fkuc me up for a few days, keep me sedated.
I don't think I can start this new job, im not going to be in a stable state after these things to deal with clients finances. Phwooaaabnbnbn, this ******** just controls me life, does it even end in death?

omegasupreme

In my personal experience...no. I died an alcoholic death even though my heart never stopped beating, or not for very long anyway. Physical death is the last thing that happens, we are dead long...long before that takes place. See, here is the cool thing though, I was given enough grace to land in the middle of some people that took me through the steps outlined in the Big Book of Alcoholic's Anonymous. Through the power I found in that process I have been restored to sanity.

You have medical attention now, you have phone numbers now...INTO ACTION!!! That power worked for me and it will work for you too.

Dee74

Hope you got some medical attention Scrub.

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Scrubmuncher

Yeh I have, I'm up to my eyes on this diazepam right not, calmed je but I'm pretty much no good for anything right mow, eyes shut but still kindof functioning, I can handle several weeks of this, the calmest I'm been in months, just got to try and persist her to Gibraltar me more now.

Fandy

when you straighten up, I hope you realize this is NOT a longterm solution to your addiction...I hope you seek out a real treatment program and face the problem if you want to stop.

MsCooterBrown

"Yeh I have, I'm up to my eyes on this diazepam right not, calmed je but I'm pretty much no good for anything right mow, eyes shut but still kindof functioning, I can handle several weeks of this, the calmest I'm been in months, just got to try and persist her to Gibraltar me more now."

Haven't heard from you in awhile Scrub. This sounds like pink cloud in a RX bottle. What is the plan when it runs out?

Scrubmuncher

Today I feel like someone is going to get me. Why would I feel like this. My heart is rattling like crazy. Why can't I get just a little bit of peace, just a moment of peace, please!

CarolD

I don't know...but I'm guessing all those pills are a factor.
You may require a treatment center to get sorted out.

Dee74

I agree with Carol scrub.

With the amount of wear and tear you've put your mind and body through recently I'm not surprised you feel unsettled.

I hope you'll consider the treatment center option - to me, it seems the best for you right now.

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