Got triggered to drink today and still feel it
 

Hi

I went to an old workplace and talked to a friend. Wasn't really nobody there except him. It was the place I worked at when I drank on my off time.

I talked to him for a bit and I don't know why but I felt somehow weaker even after I told him I haven't drank for eight months and feel really good.

I left there and came home to do some work on my computer and set up a desk. That's when I realized I am in the mood to drink. It would feel wonderful right now something is telling me. To let loose, get drunk and play some games or whatever. It's a feeling that recognizes that i really am depressed and I'm just sugar coating the fact that I am not by staying sober.

I got to go to the gym now. Maybe that will override the feeling and let me have a decent night.

Yea, do what works for you that will keep you from drinking.

Do you have a support group other than SR? A sponsor?

Try to focus on the result of that 'wonderful' drink...do you really want to go through that again?

I can't remember what you use for support tooling but now's a good time to utilise it :)

Triggers and associations are just feelings...we don't have to act on them:

Overcoming Life's Obstacles: Urge Surfing to beat addictions and cravings

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Yes bro. Good thinking. Meetings are good too. Lots of good discussion there and some of the women are hot recently in my meetings.

@ uniquenewyork..lol thats a good reason to go!!! :ring

I had that "in the mood" to drink feeling today!

So I called a sober member of AA and talked it out.

I thought also about the hangovers that come with drinking, and I know I didn't want to go through that again.

I also went to an AA meeting.

Now I am here...and I stayed sober.

I think it will take time for thoughts to drink obsession will be replaced with total thoughts to be sober...and I look forward to that.

I hope someday that the thought that I am in the mood to drink, will never be appealing for me.

It's such a lie...for me.

Oh, I could just drink, and hang out, and that would be so wonderful...not.

Cunning, baffling, powerful.

Alcohol.

Thanks all.

I went to the gym but it was closed.:c021:

So I went to the casino and won 50 bucks! I gave back 30 of it then took the 20 home. It took my mind off it. Plus there were many hot looking chicks there....:c029: