drumstick

Thank you so very much for the nice comments I just read tonight and the encouragement, it really makes my recovery so worth while and glad their are people that understand and provide their time to respond. :-)

Fandy

and you would do the same for any of us that reach out too...i'm happy to read that you worked through a difficult issue and feel better.

have you checked out the gratitude area? it's one of my favorite places in SR. very helpful for me.

SingerChic78

Man.. You say things exactly as I do!! I can't imagine avoiding everything everybody does for fun all of my damn life! I'm a musician for goodness sakes!! I even gave up all of my hard work and my dream since as long as I can remember to get better! For what? I'm MISERABLE!! I hate everything and most everybody, even though I pretend not to. I'm jealous of people who can drink.. (in bars, in movies) I can't sing for friends weddings!! This **** is so hard!! I am lost! But I also know where drinking will get me, and that's really really bad too! In the end of the last time I drank, I noticed I literally don't know when I have have a buzz until I am blacked out and I don't stop pouring it in! THAT'S SCARY! So what now?? I have no idea! I live in an area where there is Wallmart, food, church, and bars. I'm flat flipping out too man! I've been going at this sober thing for a year.. I'm just plain sick of it! I'm tired! I'm tired of thinking about it.. being aware of it. It literally feels so lonely even though I am surrounded. It totally DOES feel like a sickly disease. I've turned into a hateful, spiteful person because of my "condition".. There..I've said it! (sigh) Where to go from here?
~Amy