Weaning.
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Weaning.
As I've been weaning off the meds I take- I am feeling the effect of less klonopin. I really don't want to go through another horrific episode that lasts for months, but I am determined to quit this stuff for good- I did not abuse it but I do know in the past that I turned to alcohol when the withdrawal became intolerable. I'm weaning much more slowly this time. I try not to take the whole dose very day, too. My fear of being laughed at in public is creeping back and I think people are judging me and I get scared to leave the apartment but today I got up and out of bed, went for a long walk and felt a little better. When I returned I was all scared again though. So I am hiding under the covers with a book. When I was a teenager I used to draw cartoons of myself in bed sleeping when I felt all bad. Maybe I will draw a little. But most likely I will stay in my room where it's safe and watch tv, read and burn incense. I am already relieved that I don't have to leave the apartment again today
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Well... I guess.... it's all from being humiliated and called ugly all the time by my peers (had no friends) and family growing up. I really was disgusting though. I'm nothing to write home about now either, but I hope that at least I don't stand out. I have gained a lot of weight too, so I am extra self conscious.
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Sleepie, I feel for you. I also have terribly anxiety and a very poor self-image. I have been managing without Klonopin, but not because of any real effort... I always only used it on rare occasions when I was unable to sleep for days due to anxiety. (Now I've run out and not put any effort into getting back into therapy or seeing a doc to get meds for my anxiety.) I guess part of the reason I only used it in those cases was because it really knocks me out. I desperately wish I just knew how to brush off the things that bother me and what other people think about me, but it's not easy for me like it is for some people. I have people all the time tell me to just relax, as if that's something I can just *do*.
I don't really have any advice, but I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone.
I don't really have any advice, but I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone.
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