Back on the wagon.........again.....
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Join Date: Feb 2011
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Back on the wagon.........again.....
Well, instead of being day 10, I'm a day one 
I gave in last night to the evil and drank. I went in to it thinking I could moderate, but when I woke up in the middle of the night (thank you vodka.....), I felt so guilty!! I felt like I had let everyone down that had supported me too. So instead of moderating, I will not drink......tonight. I will try a little harder next time, I just hit that one week slump and gave in a little easily. So, I haven't been gone, but I'm back lol!
I gave in last night to the evil and drank. I went in to it thinking I could moderate, but when I woke up in the middle of the night (thank you vodka.....), I felt so guilty!! I felt like I had let everyone down that had supported me too. So instead of moderating, I will not drink......tonight. I will try a little harder next time, I just hit that one week slump and gave in a little easily. So, I haven't been gone, but I'm back lol!
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Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: South Dakota, USA
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I don't know anything about your story Redhead, but have you given any thought to what you can do differently this time? Maybe some face to face support? If quitting drinking was as easy as just stopping drinking, none of us would be here. Best wishes to you and you quest for sobriety. You can do it!
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Forr me to actually quit...say that way and be happy to do so...
..I had to want recoverymore than I wanted to drink.
Have you read this ? it's from the book that convinced me to quit..
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
I took that information....re-connected to God and AA and have not had another drink.
Hope this will be your final drinking go round
..I had to want recoverymore than I wanted to drink.
Have you read this ? it's from the book that convinced me to quit..
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
I took that information....re-connected to God and AA and have not had another drink.
Hope this will be your final drinking go round
Its_me_jen
Join Date: May 2004
Location: Salina, Ks
Posts: 8,547
RedheadJen
I don't know much of your story but have you considered checking out an AA meeting?
Glad you're back again .... I know that sense of shame and guilt all too well.
I can't tell you how many times I sincerely intended on having "just a few" drinks and ended up in a blackout or something unintended and bad happening. I resisted AA for years, mostly the spiritual angle of it but I eventually got to a point where I was so desperate that I was willing to try anything. I checked myself into rehab and started attending meetings. Eventually I got a sponsor and worked the steps.
I've now been sober a little over two years and am sponsoring people myself. I never would have imagined it and I've never been happier and more content in my life.
That's just a little of my story .... from one Jen to another.
I don't know much of your story but have you considered checking out an AA meeting?
Glad you're back again .... I know that sense of shame and guilt all too well.
I can't tell you how many times I sincerely intended on having "just a few" drinks and ended up in a blackout or something unintended and bad happening. I resisted AA for years, mostly the spiritual angle of it but I eventually got to a point where I was so desperate that I was willing to try anything. I checked myself into rehab and started attending meetings. Eventually I got a sponsor and worked the steps.
I've now been sober a little over two years and am sponsoring people myself. I never would have imagined it and I've never been happier and more content in my life.
That's just a little of my story .... from one Jen to another.
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Two days still impresses me more than 20 years !!! I remember the early days SOOO well. Please keep posting, I need to hear these wonderful stories about coming out on the other side of our struggles.
Thanks, Ron
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Re: Back on the wagon.........again.....
Welcome back, RedheadJen, into the fold of sober recovery.
Keep coming back....
~God Bless~
It doesn't matter how many times we fall, but how many grow stronger as a result.
Keep coming back....
~God Bless~
It doesn't matter how many times we fall, but how many grow stronger as a result.
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