15 months today....
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15 months today....
i'm so happy to have made it this far. my life so much better than it was and i feel better than i ever have in my life.
it's 6:30 am and my daughter is in the living room watching Scooby Doo with a nasty cold. I've been awake for the last 2 hours trying to make her comfortable and i'm so grateful i can do that now. She's sipping some OJ and eating some crackers with a big box of kleenex.
She still watches me like a hawk. Almost every morning, she says.."Daddy, you're not sleepy anymore" with a big smile on her face. "No baby...i'm' not, and not ever again" is what i always say. it's gotten to be somewhat of a morning ritual.
I was never a mean or abusive drunk, but my biggest sin was ignoring my daughter. I spent most of the day on the couch lapsing in and out of consciousness from the prior night of drinking and drugging. she would beg me to play with her, and i just couldn't. i was too weak.
I spend every waking moment of my life trying to make that up to her now.
I really thought, or was hoping that she would have forgotten my drinking past, but the doctor says she 's got an eidetic memory. my wife's late brother had one too. i guess that makes it just that more important that i stay on the path of recovery.
So, here i am now, in a place where i have only dreamed of. i no longer crave booze, i rarely think of it, and i spend my days trying to make my family happy. i'm in a wonderful place in my life and it's because of God and sober recovery. you guys are amazing, amazing people. I'm eternally grateful for all of the support and kind words over the last 15 months.
i gotta go now, my daughter wants me to play dolls with her.
thanks again,
bulldog.
it's 6:30 am and my daughter is in the living room watching Scooby Doo with a nasty cold. I've been awake for the last 2 hours trying to make her comfortable and i'm so grateful i can do that now. She's sipping some OJ and eating some crackers with a big box of kleenex.
She still watches me like a hawk. Almost every morning, she says.."Daddy, you're not sleepy anymore" with a big smile on her face. "No baby...i'm' not, and not ever again" is what i always say. it's gotten to be somewhat of a morning ritual.
I was never a mean or abusive drunk, but my biggest sin was ignoring my daughter. I spent most of the day on the couch lapsing in and out of consciousness from the prior night of drinking and drugging. she would beg me to play with her, and i just couldn't. i was too weak.
I spend every waking moment of my life trying to make that up to her now.
I really thought, or was hoping that she would have forgotten my drinking past, but the doctor says she 's got an eidetic memory. my wife's late brother had one too. i guess that makes it just that more important that i stay on the path of recovery.
So, here i am now, in a place where i have only dreamed of. i no longer crave booze, i rarely think of it, and i spend my days trying to make my family happy. i'm in a wonderful place in my life and it's because of God and sober recovery. you guys are amazing, amazing people. I'm eternally grateful for all of the support and kind words over the last 15 months.
i gotta go now, my daughter wants me to play dolls with her.
thanks again,
bulldog.
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it's 6:30 am and my daughter is in the living room watching Scooby Doo with a nasty cold. I've been awake for the last 2 hours trying to make her comfortable
Thats great man that your seeing the things you can now enjoy/help with because of sobriety.
Congrats on the 15 months. HUGE accomplishment! Treat yourself to something special today like some 15 month B day cake!:day2
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Congrats on your 15 months and your happy family life.
I'll hit 15 months in a couple weeks myself. For me now, my family life is all about my dogs and how delighted I am to be giving them the good care they deserve and need.
Enjoy your day and your daughter.
I'll hit 15 months in a couple weeks myself. For me now, my family life is all about my dogs and how delighted I am to be giving them the good care they deserve and need.Enjoy your day and your daughter.
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Originally Posted by SSIL75 
Man that's like a parents worst nightmare 
Congrats on 15 mos and feel better, little girl!!
Congrats on 15 mos and feel better, little girl!!
it makes my wife very cautious about her development. her brother was a genius and was beating chess masters at 8 yrs old , graduated highschool at 14 and had a phd by the time he was 22. he ended up commiting suicide at 34 because of emotional problems. Mark never had a childhood. he was always being pushed and pushed and the pressure ruined him.
I wanna make sure my daughter gets to have a say in her own development and how fast or slow she wants to take things.
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thanks for all of the kind words of encouragement. i'm about to go out and meet up with some sober friends and work on a vintage car we all bought together about the time i got sober. it's almost done. it's been alot of work, but it's turned out to be a work of art.
on the way home i think i'll grab some hot wings and watch Survivor and then both Criminal Minds shows with the wife and then get some sleep. it's been a really nice day.
on the way home i think i'll grab some hot wings and watch Survivor and then both Criminal Minds shows with the wife and then get some sleep. it's been a really nice day.
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