UniqueNewYork

Short version. New job. Excellent pay. Great opportunity. I replaced someone who was s*** - canned after 2 weeks. A couple of comments in the air I have overheard, i.e. "We want to train you on (my name)'s job just in case", couple other little comments. On the other side, some great encouragement also, "you're doing a good job" etc.

Only been on the job a few days.. but feeling the squeeze. I think its normal. I have trouble describing the feeling. Its like.. a "what horrible thing will I do" if I get canned feeling. Like maybe i'll go on a weeklong binge.. or worse. I am sober and its making a huge difference with this job in every way. But I can't escape the fact that I'm looking at some miserable time if I lose this job even in best case scenario. A lot of lying and pretending the last year i've been employed and the previous 8 years drinking weren't some horrible s***storm. I'm just sick of failure. I don't want to fail anymore. I don't want to be a failure. When I think about this stuff, its like part of me wants to drink, but most of me just wants to do the best job I can do, and become something great.

doggonecarl

Its great that you recognize that these feelings of failure are a risk to your sobriety. Take the energy your are expending on thinking about failure and use it to think about ways to succeed at your job and you will!

Jeb18

I just got a job and is very excited to start working again.

UniqueNewYork

What day / week are you on just curious

CarolD

The best job protection I know of is to remain sober and
perform your duties to the best of your avilities...

The best protection I use for my lasting sober life is the
daily commection with God and AA....

I find that my self confidence grows the longer I'm sober.
Hope that will be true for you as well...

LaFemme

Try not to think so much about failure lest it become a self fulfilling prophecy.

Congrats on the job!