Not had alcohol for a whole year!
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Not had alcohol for a whole year!
Like it says, this is me at my year without alcohol. 
When I began this period of sobriety I had no plans to stay dry for ever - I just knew I had to stop. I was sitting crying as I chugged away wondering why I was still putting that poison into my system.
It has been a long hard slog.There have been 4 or 5 occasions during this year where I really 100% believed I would drink again. I felt I had crossed a line in my mind and there was no going back. It was this mental aberration that had caused me to drink again in the past.
But this time I have learned that even when you reach this stage it is still possible to survive. Sometimes it was 4 or 5 days climbing the walls, hanging on just for the next few hours, not doing it just that day, filling my face with food, anything that kept me going just long enough for the urges to pass. And then eventually asking for help.
I started posting when I felt like this and sharing with you all seemed reveal these urges for the insanity they actually were. A problem shared indeed...
Learning it was possible to pull back from the brink is what is different for me this time.
Like I've said before in previous posts - SR is like a 24hr-a-day meeting that I can drop into any time - I can sit at the back and just listen, or I can scream for help when the madness sets in.
Big thanks to you all - I wouldn't be here without you.
A day at a time I plan to keep this precious jewel.
Stu.
When I began this period of sobriety I had no plans to stay dry for ever - I just knew I had to stop. I was sitting crying as I chugged away wondering why I was still putting that poison into my system.
It has been a long hard slog.There have been 4 or 5 occasions during this year where I really 100% believed I would drink again. I felt I had crossed a line in my mind and there was no going back. It was this mental aberration that had caused me to drink again in the past.
But this time I have learned that even when you reach this stage it is still possible to survive. Sometimes it was 4 or 5 days climbing the walls, hanging on just for the next few hours, not doing it just that day, filling my face with food, anything that kept me going just long enough for the urges to pass. And then eventually asking for help.
I started posting when I felt like this and sharing with you all seemed reveal these urges for the insanity they actually were. A problem shared indeed...
Learning it was possible to pull back from the brink is what is different for me this time.
Like I've said before in previous posts - SR is like a 24hr-a-day meeting that I can drop into any time - I can sit at the back and just listen, or I can scream for help when the madness sets in.
Big thanks to you all - I wouldn't be here without you.
A day at a time I plan to keep this precious jewel.
Stu.
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Originally Posted by chopperts 
like i've said before in previous posts - sr is like a 24hr-a-day meeting that i can drop into any time - i can sit at the back and just listen, or i can scream for help when the madness sets in.
amen
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