simplyfab

Wow, Childofnite!
Thank you SO much for that letter!
I'm gonna make several copies of that and tape one to my mirror, keep one in my car's dash and one in my wallet.
That's beautiful in a very dark, scary and dead on kind of way.

That'll DEFINITELY keep me from drinking if and when I get an urge.

Once again....

childofnite

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Originally Posted by simplyfab

Wow, Childofnite!
Thank you SO much for that letter!
I'm gonna make several copies of that and tape one to my mirror, keep one in my car's dash and one in my wallet.
That's beautiful in a very dark, scary and dead on kind of way.

That'll DEFINITELY keep me from drinking if and when I get an urge.

Once again....

You're welcome. I got it from here months ago, actually. (noticed a typo in 'chuckly' instead of 'chuckle') so might want to change that first, LOL.

I have seen variations of this for nearly 10 years - I am a nicotine addict as well - 10 years in July. This, and other such written material helped me back then, and this particular letter is just as powerful now as it was then. It brings home the fact that it is not about that 'just one to relax' or that giggly fun time you had maybe once in which you didn't pass out. This letter shows its true face: ADDICTION, plain and simple and as unvarnished as possible.

Your addictive substance would love for you to believe that not feeding it will kill you, and that withdrawal and the rest of your life after active addiction will be a living hell.

Guess what? Addictions LIE.

And although we cannot be stronger than our addictions, we CAN be smarter.

CarolD

Pink....

Here is an informative link about AA meetings

Your First AA Meeting<

Kmber2010

Pink....you got a whole bunch of people rallying for you hon.

I think getting to that 1st meeting....is gonna change a whole lot of things.

Liv2011

I'm on Day 2 and it's soooo hard, I am sitting here grinding my teeth...and of course I want a drink and even those old justifications come into my mind - but I just visualize the effect - the mind-numbing buzz, how I am not really present for my kids and just say to myself 'is it worth it?' because it could never end, and the drinking gets you nowhere...I am taking some vitamins and will make some tea soon...because I just can't do it anymore...not drinking for 2 days has really brought it home how much of a drunk I was - you never think you are that bad until you go without and remember...like I had a drink before just about everything I did - always thinking 'the drink will make this next thing I have to do more bearable' and it never ends. There is always an excuse to drink, I mean I could always find some reason...I am focusing today on the fact that for most of my life I didn't drink and it was fine.

simplyfab

Good for you on your day 2!!

Its not easy, but you're doing it.
I know the feeling of making everything bearable by drinking. I was the person who took a water bottle filled w/ vodka to toys r us when my fiance took the kids and I to buy some gifts for the kids.
Thats when things were really bad.
It wasn't to make the situation bearable but to make me bearable.

I hope you continue on your journey to sobriety.
You'll love yourself more and actually start to enjoy life, instead of constantly thinking when your next drink is coming.

Good luck to you...

NYCDoglvr

Pink ... I'm so sorry. I remember the self-hatred I had when I drank, how awful it was. I remember being hopeless.

We've all had to make the decision to stop drinking and ask for help. I promise you this: it won't be very long until you feel terrific. If I put down alcohol you can.