Back after a relapse
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Join Date: Jun 2010
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Back after a relapse
Hi all,
I just wanted to check in a share a bit of info about what's going on with me.
I'm 29, and have been abusing alcohol for about 2 or 3 years. I get no joy from alcohol, and it has a very negative impact on my happiness, finances, and job performance.
After spending a few weeks reading and posting here last Summer, I successfully stopped drinking for about 3 months. I relapsed about 3 weeks ago. I've been drinking nearly every day since.
Like many of us, alcohol isn't my only problem. I'm also extremely depressed, and struggle with an eating disorder.
I'm hoping to start another sober period. I'm not sure if today will be a sober day. The hardest thing in my experience has been psyching myself out early in the day, by thinking about drinking/not drinking that night.
Anyway, just wanted to vent, and put this out there. Thanks for reading.
JG
I just wanted to check in a share a bit of info about what's going on with me.
I'm 29, and have been abusing alcohol for about 2 or 3 years. I get no joy from alcohol, and it has a very negative impact on my happiness, finances, and job performance.
After spending a few weeks reading and posting here last Summer, I successfully stopped drinking for about 3 months. I relapsed about 3 weeks ago. I've been drinking nearly every day since.
Like many of us, alcohol isn't my only problem. I'm also extremely depressed, and struggle with an eating disorder.
I'm hoping to start another sober period. I'm not sure if today will be a sober day. The hardest thing in my experience has been psyching myself out early in the day, by thinking about drinking/not drinking that night.
Anyway, just wanted to vent, and put this out there. Thanks for reading.
JG
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
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hey John - I'm glad you came back. It's not easy to start all over again, but most of us have had to.
Are you doing any kind of program or counseling, meetings, etc.? I had to get help for my depression in addition to other things.....
Remember to work it one day at a time and one thing at a time. You can't tackle every single issue at once. Just know that you can do it and you deserve to live a better life.
Are you doing any kind of program or counseling, meetings, etc.? I had to get help for my depression in addition to other things.....
Remember to work it one day at a time and one thing at a time. You can't tackle every single issue at once. Just know that you can do it and you deserve to live a better life.
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Europe
Posts: 445
Hey John,
Good to see you back. I'm afraid I'm in the same boat - relapsed and also have a long history of ED too. I guess the only this that helps me right now is, if others can do it then I (we) can do it too.
Wishing you the best of luck.
M
Good to see you back. I'm afraid I'm in the same boat - relapsed and also have a long history of ED too. I guess the only this that helps me right now is, if others can do it then I (we) can do it too.
Wishing you the best of luck.
M
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Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: Atlanta, GA
Posts: 1,934
Welcome back John.
Why not go to an AA meeting and go talk to some people who know about how to get and stay sober?
The same me will drink again. Maybe this is true with you too? Why not do something, anything, everything different?
Let us know how we can help.
Kjell
Why not go to an AA meeting and go talk to some people who know about how to get and stay sober?
The same me will drink again. Maybe this is true with you too? Why not do something, anything, everything different?
Let us know how we can help.
Kjell
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Join Date: Oct 2010
Location: Arkansas
Posts: 157
Welcome back JG. I'm not sure what kind of support you have, but SR is a great, supportive place to read and share. I also had the support of my wife, and went outside to a group to gain even more support. I needed help - and was lucky enough to find it. Whatever your case is, welcome back!
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: Northern Utah
Posts: 920
Hi, JG! I have had more day ones than I care to admit. But each time I have gone back to the bottle and returned to sobriety (even for a brief period) I have learned something. One thing I have learned is that I need to be in counseling and on medication for my depression and anxiety troubles. Otherwise I WILL self-medicate. Then it turns into an awful cycle.
We are definitely not alone. Glad you are posting here!
We are definitely not alone. Glad you are posting here!
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Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: Michigan
Posts: 5,377
Sounds like you need a dual treatment method of AA for your drinking and counseling for your depression and eating disorder. I've been in the AA program long enough to see that it is very possible to stay sober and battle depression and the eating disorder.
You'll have to work hard at it and make it a top priority, but it can be done. And you can be happy, joyous and free while doing it. To start with you will need to recognize that you can no longer drink safely and must be willing to change. Even if it's just a gradual change it's ok. But it's got to start somewhere.
You'll have to work hard at it and make it a top priority, but it can be done. And you can be happy, joyous and free while doing it. To start with you will need to recognize that you can no longer drink safely and must be willing to change. Even if it's just a gradual change it's ok. But it's got to start somewhere.
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