findingt

I came on here yesterday morning cus I wanted to drink... I kept praying asking God to please help me get through the urges.

God acts in funny ways sometimes, someone in my family got completely utterly smashed and made a huge scene, started a fight, and it was just a mess... it was like looking in a mirror, reminded me of all the times I did the exact same thing. Yelling and fighting for no reason, angry at the world and thinking I was right and everyone else around me, who were sober nonetheless, were wrong.

Well, the urge is gone!! lol ... thank God I'm no longer there. So blessed tonight I'm sober and I was the one talking and calming down the drunk person. That part was scary, geez am I sorry for all those times I did that.

kiki5711

yea, every time I'm reminded by someone else what I use to be like drunk, the memory of it makes me feel like vomiting. Not a good memory.

endlesspatience

And when I see them staggering down the street after getting trashed in the bars, fighting with their partners and disrespecting others, I feel so relieved that I don't bring shame on myself in that way at the moment.

CarolD

Yes...being sober allows me to make much better
choices....ergo....my life runs smoother...

I used my AA steps to deal with remorse and guilt over my past.
It's been a tremendous experience...living the program.


Glad you kept on track findingt..thanks for posting

Good to know

ZZworldontheweb

Who knows, maybe that person will get sober at some point by following your example.

bcboy

I like that thought Carol

Good on ya FT for making it through the evening. It is also my very first sober Christmas since I was 14 or so.

findingt

I'm so tired, we ended up going to a hotel cus he got violent and just wouldn't stop. I'm so glad I wasn't the one ruining the holidays for everyone else.

My first Christmas sober was a bit of a rough one but I'm happy I made it through sober. I was there when I was needed I was able to jump n drive us away without a single worry about drinking n driving.

Thanks everyone for your comments .. much love ~T

coffeenut

It's amazing how clear sobriety makes our thinking.

I'm glad you had a sober holiday....and....each one gets even better. Really.

NYCDoglvr

Thank you for the inspiring post!