StewartUK

But i've decided to come and post everytime I fail in my attempts for total sober. I was good for 5 weeks then slipped then was fine again till the following sat when I had another few beers. None have been major binges and ive actually noticed the onset of depression coming on during the drinking making me stop that night rather than feeling the full force of the remorse the following day.

ANYWAY ive got to keep at it, and hopefully by posting this everytime I will somehow shame myself into sticking to it.

kiki5711

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CarolD

At the end of my drinking...it made me depressed too.
Sorry to know it's happening to you.....

Good news is...once I finally quit ...my depression lifted rather quickly.
Hope that will be true for you.

Please read this and take action..

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html

Welcome back to SR

SSIL75

Please continue to share!

I quit drinking slowly. I never drank again like I did after I quit the first time. It took me a few months to finally pull the trigger.

Keep trying!

BullDog777

i know chronic relapsing feels hopeless. it took me over a decade to get a year.
at my end, i could barely even get out of bed in the morning.

hope you make it this time.

StewartUK

It definately feels like each time is less severe now. It'd usually be a Saturday night binge but now it just seems to be a few drinks before i realise "no hold on i definately dont enjoy this".

SSIL75

Yes, towards the end I was just kind of in a low grade depression. Knowing that I was happier sober but drinking anyway. It was weird.

Zebra1275

I don't mind you posting if you slip, especially if the act of posting helps you. Whatever it takes to help you get and stay sober.

Miela

StewartUK, I certainly don't mind It shows you are trying and reaching out which has to be a good thing, right?

I relapsed 3 days ago after over 3 weeks so I'm in the same boat. And yes, the depression hit in pretty bad the next day. I guess when I was drinking every day, I wasn't so aware of the affects the booze had on me physically and mentally/emotionally -these feelings were just 'normal' and part of my everyday life. After a few weeks break from not feeling so cr*p every day and the body beginning to heal itself, I guess these consequenses are more obvious because we've had a break.

I, for one, am sick and f***ing tired of the affects of booze. Maybe I needed that relapse to remind me of that and drive it home for me. So, I'm with you Stewart - we can do it!!!!

Wishing you the best of luck.

M

Sudz No More

Welcome to my learning curve Stewart. That's the beauty of it though, learning from our past mistakes is making us stronger for the future and that's where we're both heading.

Race ya there.