Dadalife

I need help, or support, or something. I've been in and out of programs, only ever tried A.A. I was sober for 6 months, then relapsed and have since been drinking for 1.5+ years. I've been drinking on and off for longer than that.

I have no idea what to do. My doc gave me a shot of Vivitrol(1 month XR Naltrexone). I can't tell if it's helping or not because i'm still drinking.

He also gave me some valium to taper off to control the DT's. I had 2 days sober, using the valium to help, until last night. I drank a lot. I was probably somewhere near 0.2 BAC. I'm not in any recovery programs right now and A.A. has never helped me.

I just don't know what to ******* do anymore. I don't want to drink, i don't want to die, my supportive family is having nightmares about me. I don't want to lose my job/social life by going to in patient care. In patient and out patient care has never kept me sober for longer than 6 months. It's been about 8 hours since my last drink, i didn't sleep at all last night, and i'm breaking down. I know i can ******* do this, i need direction.

I'm 23 years old and right now i feel like i have no future, no life ahead of me. I'm not suicidal, the only thing that has kept me alive these past 5 years has been rock climbing and family. I have found a passion that is worth living for but i just cant ******* quit.

Researching SMART and AVRT right now. Please give me some direction/support i could really use it right now.

cloudbusting

I wish I had all the answers and knew the right things to say.... All I know is that you have come to the right place. This site has helped me tremendously and is very supportive. Plus it is right at your fingertips 24/7. If there is nobody in the chat room, you can also refer to the forums and read the posts of others in the same boat. I am 2 weeks sober and come to this site everyday. I am so glad you are here and you are on the right path by realizing you have a problem. Take good care.

LaFemme

Hi Dada!

Welcome. You are right...you can do this. But it will take work, which it sounds like you are willing to do. Have you tried CBT or any other type of therapy? I have found these things really helpful at removing the obstacles to staying sober. The time you made it 6 months...was it hard or easy? What caused you to trip up?

SR has been a wonderful help for me...I hope it helps you as well.

xo, LaFemme

Dadalife

I don't know what caused me to slip up. It was fairly easy because the initial month was forced, by means of a 28 day in patient program. after than i lived in a sober house. One day i went to a show concert with a friend who was 'supportive' but not sober himself. I ordered a beer and he looked shocked, but didn't say anything...

Whats CBT???

LaFemme

CBT...Clinical Behaviour Therapy is what it stands for. It's basically therapy to the best of my knowledge. I work with a life coach, but we address problems in my life that are holding me back...she is not trained in addiction...but I consider the work I do with her crucial to my success as I need to be improving my life in order not to drink.

OK...so you went to a concert and had a beer....people say that usually a slip doesn't come out of nowhere so you might have been headed for that slip before it actually happened. Still I would suggest avoiding concerts for a bit. Do you enjoy reading? I found that helpful...i read "the easy way to stop drinking" by Allan Carr and it was very helpful.

What were you doing to change your life during that 6 month period?

least

Actually it's Congitive Behavioral Therapy, and it's for certain mental illnesses for which meds don't help.

to the family. I've found a lot of support here and I'm sure you will too.

Dee74

Welcome dadalife
Do check out all the things you mentioned - SMART, AVRT/CBT...and stay connected here too - you'll find a lot of help support and ideas here as well

do the leg work...go to the meetings or appointments...the more you put into your recovery now the better I think

D