leo21

We'll be your friends.

Here is something positive to take from this experience. You now know that he is one of your triggers. The stress of him being abusive to you was a trigger for you to give in to yourself and take that drink. So to me, here is an important thing:

If you didn't drink, he would still be around and acting like a jackazz and boozing it up.
If you do take that drink or drinks, he is still around acting like a jackazz and boozing it up.

My thing is that you just don't give in and drink because you will be able to better handle his abusive behavior sober than not. I found that the messes in my life are still here staring me in the face with or without drinking. So why compound it and make things worse. If I drink or not, that junk in the trunk is still gonna be there. Make sense?

sleepie

He's out! He was a little nasty when he left but nothing too bad. So now I can resume my plan in a nice house with two sweet doggies. I have about two weeks where I am house sitting and tonight a friend is coming to visit- a much calmer and very nice woman and maybe her husband. So back to square one, lots of hydration today and what a relief he is gone. I know I'll get some nasty emails and then after awhile something nice and I have to ignore it all or the cycle will continue. I really feel gross today, I don't want to feel like this anymore. Thanks for reading, I hope you are all well.