Peta

OK so Day 1

went to a meeting which was amazing - some really powerful sharing

dont feel like drinking in the morning or midday but by 3-4 the mental compulsion starts

really wanted to - even called a friend and arranged something

called out to God (someone in the meeting today said that at first he didnt WANT to give up drinking but he knew he NEEDED to and that was enough at first) like I say in the mornings I WANT to be sober by the afternoon I want to drink - but I knew I needed to be sober - thats why i'm on here,, why im gong to meetings - i know deep down i need and want to quit

Anyway called out to God amidst the drinking thoughts PLEASE HELP ME

And through a power greater than myself I called my sponsor (who i havent met up with yet - first meeting tomorrow)

we talked and i shared with her

and she said Yes this is normal - its your disease talking...you just have to realise your head is where the illness is - you dont have to act on it

this was a bit of a revelation to me ! i realised that on my own my disease will railroad me into drinking because i'm POWERLESS -

I got the first step

Then by the Grace of GOD - once I got off the phone - the desire was gone!

So i'm feeling very grateful as i write this tonight

have had a bath, read the big book - i have a bit of a headache but i'm really grateful and happy to be soberxx

Thanks for all your support

Dee74

Sounds like you have some really good things in place Peta
Well done

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Iriss

I'm so happy for you x

DayTrader

Isn't that awesome?
Very very cool stuff Peta. I love hearing stories like that!!

CarolD

Good job on making positive decisions.....

LexieCat

Great!! You did everything suggested, and found out it actually works.

On to day two!