I learned a valuable lesson about myself last night
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I learned a valuable lesson about myself last night
Hey, sorry if this post isnt right for this forum. Not sure where else to post it.
Anyway, I turned 21 a couple of months ago. I had never gotten drunk, mainly because I haven't been that drawn to liquor. I am way more attracted to drugs that stimulate, but you know, you do what you can to avoid bad situations, whatever substance is involved.
Last night, there was a wedding. And at that wedding, there was an open bar. I made it a rule to only have one drink- but one turned to four by the end of the night with social pressure and the increasing frustration I got with my mother acting way younger than her age. I don't remember much besides little tidbits of stuff. Four drinks dont sound like a lot, but mind you, I am a lightweight and they were very potent beverages.
Long story short, I learned that I don't ever want to get drunk again, or develop a drinking habit. I am the only one today in my family to be having a 'hangover'. My sister and my mom both feel they had a blast and they want to do it again, but I am frustrated, scared, and sad that I put myself in that situation.
I do remember my mom being very loud, something that bugged me. I also remember drinking so I would more easily ignore her.
So, in the end of the day, I feel like I learned a lesson and thankfully I wasn't sucked in. I don't want to look like my mom when I'm older, and I don't want to be in another situation where I look like I have my eyes open underwater, and all that bad stuff.
Today, everyone was talking about how fun it was to drink and party- except for me. I just kept to myself and felt ashamed of what I did. I was angry that such even happened.
So, I don't know what to discuss other than to get some other opinions and reflections. Thanks!
Anyway, I turned 21 a couple of months ago. I had never gotten drunk, mainly because I haven't been that drawn to liquor. I am way more attracted to drugs that stimulate, but you know, you do what you can to avoid bad situations, whatever substance is involved.
Last night, there was a wedding. And at that wedding, there was an open bar. I made it a rule to only have one drink- but one turned to four by the end of the night with social pressure and the increasing frustration I got with my mother acting way younger than her age. I don't remember much besides little tidbits of stuff. Four drinks dont sound like a lot, but mind you, I am a lightweight and they were very potent beverages.
Long story short, I learned that I don't ever want to get drunk again, or develop a drinking habit. I am the only one today in my family to be having a 'hangover'. My sister and my mom both feel they had a blast and they want to do it again, but I am frustrated, scared, and sad that I put myself in that situation.
I do remember my mom being very loud, something that bugged me. I also remember drinking so I would more easily ignore her.
So, in the end of the day, I feel like I learned a lesson and thankfully I wasn't sucked in. I don't want to look like my mom when I'm older, and I don't want to be in another situation where I look like I have my eyes open underwater, and all that bad stuff.
Today, everyone was talking about how fun it was to drink and party- except for me. I just kept to myself and felt ashamed of what I did. I was angry that such even happened.
So, I don't know what to discuss other than to get some other opinions and reflections. Thanks!
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The very first time I got drunk... The police were called on us.
That's not "normal" drinking...
I often wish, or even regret, not stopping then...
I'd strongly urge you to seek ways to fulfill your want to not drink.
Just my $0.02
That's not "normal" drinking...
I often wish, or even regret, not stopping then...
I'd strongly urge you to seek ways to fulfill your want to not drink.
Just my $0.02
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Sounds like if you can't beat em - join em. Then you were like why did I do that, they are acting a fool. Yes, people act differently when they get hammered and it is not always pretty. You hopefully learned a good lesson - alcohol is not for you. Now lets talk about your drug use. Not any better Teal!
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Man I wish I get in my time machine and talk to 21-year old "ConfusedNC." Trust me, you are not missing out on much by sticking to the straight-and-narrow. Yes, there were good times, but the drinking I did in the 12 years since I was your age was 99% bad and 1% good. And the 1% is probably not as good as I remember it.
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Originally Posted by schem9 
Sounds like if you can't beat em - join em. Then you were like why did I do that, they are acting a fool. Yes, people act differently when they get hammered and it is not always pretty. You hopefully learned a good lesson - alcohol is not for you. Now lets talk about your drug use. Not any better Teal!
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Trying to "deal with" yourself is hard work. I still have a very hard time with that--such as right now, since I'm procrastinating writing a paper. I have so much fear--it's totally irrational--but it's there nonetheless.
Don't go down the train wreck railway that is addiction--to anything. For me, it was alcohol. You are young--save yourself that pain and misery.
Don't go down the train wreck railway that is addiction--to anything. For me, it was alcohol. You are young--save yourself that pain and misery.
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I think the important part of your post is that you drank to medicate a situation. It's not a good way to go really, because I drank to medicate my situation all the time. Nervous? Drink. Sad? Drink. Happy? Drink. Feeling out of place? Drink etc etc etc etc etc
I see alcohol for what it is now. Some people are great with alcohol, they have a couple of glasses of wine etc and you wouldn't even know they were drinking. Most people are boring/loud/obnoxious/irritating when they drink, and it's safe to say that I was one of those people. Sad part is I was always drunk! Ugh.
Anyway you seem to have a good head on your shoulders, good luck.
I see alcohol for what it is now. Some people are great with alcohol, they have a couple of glasses of wine etc and you wouldn't even know they were drinking. Most people are boring/loud/obnoxious/irritating when they drink, and it's safe to say that I was one of those people. Sad part is I was always drunk! Ugh.
Anyway you seem to have a good head on your shoulders, good luck.
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