crzylilmndfreak

so i was having trouble with whether messing with my meds, i.e. taking my scrpt like my night time med in the morning for a little bit of a "high" was cosidered a "relapse" for a while i was even crushing and snorting my ritalin script and thought nothing of it..."i could take it up the butt if i want, im still not taking more than prescribed a day" hooo boy, the thoughts of a sick mind.
I will take or drink anything i can to get any kind of head change. I have drank mouthwash, i have drank vanillla, i have drank cough med. i have taken any kind of pill avail. to me... as of today i have 30 days of complete sobriety, no messing with my meds, no NOTHING... i am in an outpatient program and just yesterday a woman offered me tramadol... i literally got butterflies, felt dizzy, nauseous, but i turned it down, i cant say i wasnt tempted as all hell, but after i was so proud of myself. And today i feel so good... i havent had 30 days of complete sobriety in so many years, and here i am! i am doing it!
crys

Dee74

Congratulations Crys

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schem9

Don't you just love those little sobriety tests. I think the feeling of saying NO and being clear headed is much better than the short term high you would get from taking it. It would just put you back to square one.

Lenina

Good Job, CLMF! Well done!

Love,

Lenina

Zencat

Hi crzylilmndfreak.

Very well done! Keep up the good progress.

CarolD

crzylilmndfreak

thank you all! i feel kind of like im starting a brand new life! its not easy, and i hope it gets better, but right now things are good (knock on wood)
i got through that get together when everyone was drinking, and i passed up some pills! ?? is that me??? i am shocked at mysefl, absolutely shocked!