Crazy thoughts after meetings?
Crazy thoughts after meetings?
Hey guys, I'm about 20 days sober right now. First 2 weeks I did it all on my own with just SR, but I know I can't "stay" sober on my own (proven many times!) so I went to a Celebrate Recovery meetings with my friend thats been sober around 21 yrs tonight.
Meeting was great, I liked it, good people good talks good info. Really weird thing though...I got home about 2 hrs ago, and every since I got back from the meeting all I can think about is drinking
Before the meeting I was good, during the meeting I was great, had a good feeling. Not even 10 mins after coming home though I'm thinking about drinking. I know that sounds absolutly crazy...but has anyone else ever felt that after a meeting? is it just because all the thoughts of drinking came out at a meeting that now they wont go away or?? maybe I'm just nuts?? lol
Thanks, just need to figure out why my mind is thinking this way right now is all.
Steve
Meeting was great, I liked it, good people good talks good info. Really weird thing though...I got home about 2 hrs ago, and every since I got back from the meeting all I can think about is drinking
Before the meeting I was good, during the meeting I was great, had a good feeling. Not even 10 mins after coming home though I'm thinking about drinking. I know that sounds absolutly crazy...but has anyone else ever felt that after a meeting? is it just because all the thoughts of drinking came out at a meeting that now they wont go away or?? maybe I'm just nuts?? lol
Thanks, just need to figure out why my mind is thinking this way right now is all.
Steve
DayWalker,
It's the addictive voice of the disease that's throwing a tantrum. It knows its days are numbered. Don't listen to it, tell it to shut up.
Once I was able to identify the addictive voice and call it out, sobriety got a lot easier for me. Keep going to the meetings. You'll learn a lot.
Hang in there!
Love,
Lenina
It's the addictive voice of the disease that's throwing a tantrum. It knows its days are numbered. Don't listen to it, tell it to shut up.
Once I was able to identify the addictive voice and call it out, sobriety got a lot easier for me. Keep going to the meetings. You'll learn a lot.
Hang in there!
Love,
Lenina
Thanks both of you.
Carol I actually did call my buddy (the one that took me to the meeting) and we had a good talk. He had some good things to say but still, those thoughts just really messed with me. I think I'm okay now (better thoughts) but wow...I really wasnt expecting to feel like that after a meeting. I kind'a expeted to feel stronger rather than weaker ya know. Just the weird thoughts of a new recovering mind I guess...or at least I hope lol.
Was a good meeting though and I'm glad I went. Going to another one on Thursday with him.
Steve
Carol I actually did call my buddy (the one that took me to the meeting) and we had a good talk. He had some good things to say but still, those thoughts just really messed with me. I think I'm okay now (better thoughts) but wow...I really wasnt expecting to feel like that after a meeting. I kind'a expeted to feel stronger rather than weaker ya know. Just the weird thoughts of a new recovering mind I guess...or at least I hope lol.
Was a good meeting though and I'm glad I went. Going to another one on Thursday with him.
Steve
Yep, and yet I'm still smacking my finger with that hammer aren't I?
After I got home and talked to my buddy one thing he asked me was "what are your triggers"..and I really had no answer to that. He told me to think about it and he would call me tomorrow and he wanted me to have an answer for him about what my triggers were. I've been thinking about it for the past couple hours and I think I see something that's a "routine"...don;t know if I would call it a trigger, but it is close I guess.
When I would drink alone at home the past few months what I would do is come into the back room where my computer is, turn off the lights, flip on the LED lights I have on my computer ( I got them a fancy computer that lights up the room) then flip on certain music (like the Doors, Pink Floyd, Hendrix, etc) and that was my routine for when I drank.
Well tonight after I got home that's exactly what I did. Jumped on the puter, flipped off the lights, flipped on the music...and then started having those thoughts
I ended up turning the lights back on, turning the music off and flipped on the olympics on the TV and those thoughts were not as bad as they were when I first got home. I know it's not as easy as "there's your problem"...but I think I have at least figured out what I guess may be considered a trigger for me?
Steve
After I got home and talked to my buddy one thing he asked me was "what are your triggers"..and I really had no answer to that. He told me to think about it and he would call me tomorrow and he wanted me to have an answer for him about what my triggers were. I've been thinking about it for the past couple hours and I think I see something that's a "routine"...don;t know if I would call it a trigger, but it is close I guess.
When I would drink alone at home the past few months what I would do is come into the back room where my computer is, turn off the lights, flip on the LED lights I have on my computer ( I got them a fancy computer that lights up the room) then flip on certain music (like the Doors, Pink Floyd, Hendrix, etc) and that was my routine for when I drank.
Well tonight after I got home that's exactly what I did. Jumped on the puter, flipped off the lights, flipped on the music...and then started having those thoughts
I ended up turning the lights back on, turning the music off and flipped on the olympics on the TV and those thoughts were not as bad as they were when I first got home. I know it's not as easy as "there's your problem"...but I think I have at least figured out what I guess may be considered a trigger for me?
Steve
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I sure would call that a trigger Steve....
Because I did a lot of drinking in Jazz Clubs
I found it darn uncomfortable to listen to
that type of music in early sobriety.
Too many memories of certain people places and scotch!
It was too easy to forget the disasters and recall the high.
Changeing habits was vital to protect my fragile new sobriety.
Jazz was out....Classical was in ...
Because I did a lot of drinking in Jazz Clubs
I found it darn uncomfortable to listen to
that type of music in early sobriety.
Too many memories of certain people places and scotch!
It was too easy to forget the disasters and recall the high.
Changeing habits was vital to protect my fragile new sobriety.
Jazz was out....Classical was in ...
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