Cloudbusted

Well I am sitting here at work...Drinking...The last thing I wanted to start doing again. My wife is so pissed off at me for doing this in the past. I am going to the mental health clinic tommorrow and seeing if I can get checked into a weekend rehab. Hopefully I can go for a few or more weekends to get my head straight. Lol I always thought getting my head straight meant drinking or smoking pot. Funny how perception shifts. I feel like I need to fix things right now, because of my wife and I separating so I can get sober. So freaking wrong am I to think that there is a easy way out. God, truth, Budda whatever bless my moments of clarity and reason. I feel bad losing time with my children to go to rehab. What is the alternative though. Continue to blindly struggle on my own. Hopefully rehab can give me some answers. thoughts of self destruction consume me. Why is this such a sick f***ing disease.:wtf2

tyler

Rehab will give you some tools, maybe a bit of sober time, but the effort has to come from your heart. It's not easy, I'm learning that. Hope you can get things together. Take care.

Mark75

Clarity. People talk about a "moment of clarity"... I didn't have one moment, but lots of small ones... As I get away from the alcohol and pills, I have deeper and more meaningful moments of clarity. But I have to see them, I have to look for them

Have you come to terms with the possibility that you are powerless over alcohol?

Mark

CarolD

I have never been to a rehab but
I can absolutely say that AA has given me
a fantastic new way of living....

hope you can soon find your way
Blessings to you and your family

whatevername

Feeling bad for losing a bit of time with your kids to get sober is irrelevant.
because sooner or later (if you keep drinking) your kid will not want to be around you anyways.
He or she can say something like what my kid said to me...
" I don't want to talk with you or see you anymore "