Distance: The Double Edged Sword.
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Location: Butte, America
Posts: 10,946
Distance: The Double Edged Sword.
From time to time,
I read someone posting
that they're afraid
because they're feeling better -
and they're afraid they're going to forget
what brought them
to the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous
to SoberRecovery
and to their knees.
I call that 'distance'.
I also read from newly recovering
who fear they are never going to know life
without their bodies fully tensed-up
resisting the urge
of alcohol bearing down on them -
as if their remaining days will be spent
stiff as a board
fighting full out to not drink.
This, too... is 'distance'.
With daily help
from my understanding of the Infinite
the Great Mystery ...
I will be sober and clean
four years this August.
wow.
Often I post attempting to comfort
the newcomer saying that with a bit of
'Distance'
the compulsion and the constant
obsession takes a back seat
as life itself begins to seep
to the front of their healing mind.
To the longer sober
who're in fear of their own pleasure
and fear more of having actually succeded at healing
a broken life of substance slavery -
terrified at every turn they're going to 'mess this up, too'...
Then, to them
you'll see me say that
if they're AWARE that there's a 'distance'
between their last drink
and where they are now -
They're not as likely to drink
or to fool themselves into thinking
they can ever drink again.
Awareness,
more than knowledge...
is power.
To me.
If Knowledge is power...
then Awareness...
is the Source of Power.
Where power comes from.
Because of the Great Mystery
working through the Program of AA
I can look back on my life now
as a continual experience, like a road
where before there was only
a broken-boarded Aztec bridge
dangling precariously over oblivion.
Huge gaps of time in a
substance - impaired memory
are being brought together
stitched by those whose patience,
whose friendship; encouragement and inspiration
help me each and every day
to make that distance
even greater ...
yet remaining fully visible in all it's horror.
Even when they **** me off.
ESPECIALLY... when they **** me off.
USE that distance, is my advice.
Glory that you've aquired some distance
between your last drink and your now....
And make the creation of the same distance
your un-interruptable goal
as you start out
on the path of recovery.
Anyway -
just something I've been thinking about.
Maybe there's something in here somone can use.
I read someone posting
that they're afraid
because they're feeling better -
and they're afraid they're going to forget
what brought them
to the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous
to SoberRecovery
and to their knees.
I call that 'distance'.
I also read from newly recovering
who fear they are never going to know life
without their bodies fully tensed-up
resisting the urge
of alcohol bearing down on them -
as if their remaining days will be spent
stiff as a board
fighting full out to not drink.
This, too... is 'distance'.
With daily help
from my understanding of the Infinite
the Great Mystery ...
I will be sober and clean
four years this August.
wow.
Often I post attempting to comfort
the newcomer saying that with a bit of
'Distance'
the compulsion and the constant
obsession takes a back seat
as life itself begins to seep
to the front of their healing mind.
To the longer sober
who're in fear of their own pleasure
and fear more of having actually succeded at healing
a broken life of substance slavery -
terrified at every turn they're going to 'mess this up, too'...
Then, to them
you'll see me say that
if they're AWARE that there's a 'distance'
between their last drink
and where they are now -
They're not as likely to drink
or to fool themselves into thinking
they can ever drink again.
Awareness,
more than knowledge...
is power.
To me.
If Knowledge is power...
then Awareness...
is the Source of Power.
Where power comes from.
Because of the Great Mystery
working through the Program of AA
I can look back on my life now
as a continual experience, like a road
where before there was only
a broken-boarded Aztec bridge
dangling precariously over oblivion.
Huge gaps of time in a
substance - impaired memory
are being brought together
stitched by those whose patience,
whose friendship; encouragement and inspiration
help me each and every day
to make that distance
even greater ...
yet remaining fully visible in all it's horror.
Even when they **** me off.
ESPECIALLY... when they **** me off.
USE that distance, is my advice.
Glory that you've aquired some distance
between your last drink and your now....
And make the creation of the same distance
your un-interruptable goal
as you start out
on the path of recovery.
Anyway -
just something I've been thinking about.
Maybe there's something in here somone can use.
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Join Date: Apr 2009
Location: KC MO
Posts: 980
Thanks for posting that Barb. I'm into month 11 (longer than I have been sober in my adult life). And I have been concerned about forgetting. It seems I no longer connect at AA meetings, or here either. Although I owe my sobriety to both. I don't think there is anything that can happen tomorrow that can make me drink. I have no desire, and I lost the thought that drinking would make something bad better a long time ago. (Obviously you lost that feeling also)Lol. But I still am alert that my attitude could change and watch for it.
But I have been staying very busy. I have been putting off so many things my entire life, and I am trying to catch up on them. Even though I'm on month eleven I still don't think I have "leveled out". I might not ever, I don't know.
Congrats on 3 and1/2 years sober.
Fred
But I have been staying very busy. I have been putting off so many things my entire life, and I am trying to catch up on them. Even though I'm on month eleven I still don't think I have "leveled out". I might not ever, I don't know.
Congrats on 3 and1/2 years sober.
Fred
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