Ministry

It took kinda long, like just before Christmas until now for me to be referred to Detox ppl and because it's took so long i kinda just want to keep drinkin. The "moment of clarity" has disappeared again.

I can't though because it's ****** up my physical and mental health, so i gotta stop. I feel kinda lost and scared that I'll have to deal with everything without being able to turn to drink. It calms me and gets rid of most of my hallucinations and stuff.

kinda sucks letting go of it i suppose, everything in my life is ****** so i just think "well i might as well keep drinkin anyway then"

I get some insane withdrawals from it, full blown hallucinations and weirds as ****, terrifying nightmares. I shake and sweat like a nun in a porn shop. I think i had a mini seizure the other night.

It's ****** lame

Ministry

I'm just 21 btw, but been drinkin since i been 12-13

CarolD

8 years of drinking really can mess up
your life....body and brain. ..

I'm so glad you are going to get medical assistance
to find a better healthier future.

Welcome to our SR Alcoholism Forum

wicked

Are you alone Ministry? Maybe you could reach out to someone in real life to talk to?
I am concerned about what you think could have been a mini-seizure. I guess I am confused about whether you are still drinking or withdrawing alone. Great visual about the nun in a porn shop. Bad shakes and sweats.

No doubt about that, Ministry. I am glad you are here, and good on you for getting help and being so aware at your age. Please keep it up, you have so much ahead of you.
Welcome to the forum.
Beth

Nevertheless

It's normal to feel lost and scared when we lose our "friend". I had that same fear. We get used to a lifestyle, and to quit is a major change. So there is bound to be an empty spot. But the fact is , it's just part of the addiction.
It wasn't long till that fear disappeared in me. I drank for 30 years. I still do a lot of the things I used to(except I remember them now). But I don't miss doing them without booze. I enjoy them more.
I wish you the best.
Fred

Stu

Good luck to you. I've no doubt it will be a very tough time for you but I'm certain the rewards will far out weigh the negative times.

meanders

Hi, Ministry.

You say your moment of clarity has passed, well you don't have to be thrilled to go to detox. It is truly a gift to have medical assistance to keep you comfortable and sane. I say take advantage of it! If your withdrawal symptoms include seizures and hallucinations it might help to look up "wet brain syndrome." Medical detox might seem like a great idea again. Take care!

littlefish

When is your detox date?

c49

The 3 days I spent in Detox were well spent. I should have gone years before I did.

Look, people make mistakes no matter how young or old they are. It just happens to be alcohol in yours, mine, everyone here. GOOD FOR YOU TO GET HELP NOW. Many do not get help and live for decades of misery and sickness. I thought detox and rehab was for oldtimers. I was 31 and NOT the youngest person there.

I remember not wanting to quit. I wasnt even getting buzzed anymore, I was drinking to stop feeling sick for the next hour or two. For some wacky reason I wasnt sure I wanted to change THAT way of living. Crazy - not exactly - I simply forgot how good it feels to live without alcohol.

Detox will get you closer to feeling normal but that is just the beginning. You have to make the next play and stay sober... Its physically rough to get booze out of your body and can be a mental drain to keep it out... do you have a plan?