When AA doesn't work for you and with a dearth of resources
I got nothin'
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: My house.
Posts: 4,890
Hello, Recovered.
I needed the help of my doctor and therapist to stay sober...to end the pattern of relapse.
Although I needed their help and I couldn't do it without them I still had to shoulder much of the burden. There were many times that the last thing I wanted to do was stay sober, but I did stay sober. I would lay down and cry myself to sleep. I felt the pain. I let the feelings pass...and sometimes they'd show up without warning. The first several months are tough.
I feel pretty good. I'm having many more good days than bad. Sometimes my good days are as simple as feeling average...and I'll take average/boring over suicidal ideations and hopelessness any day.
In the beginning it's so hard to see how anything can get better. I had to believe the people here at SR that things will improve. I made myself believe it.
And I cut myself a break. I stopped beating myself up. I forgave myself...and moved on.
I'm getting better at loving myself with each day that passes. It's important for me. I'm chipping away at years of low self-esteem...and with all the tearing down I'm doing I'm building up a new and better foundation. It's the beginning of my new life.
I needed the help of my doctor and therapist to stay sober...to end the pattern of relapse.
Although I needed their help and I couldn't do it without them I still had to shoulder much of the burden. There were many times that the last thing I wanted to do was stay sober, but I did stay sober. I would lay down and cry myself to sleep. I felt the pain. I let the feelings pass...and sometimes they'd show up without warning. The first several months are tough.
I feel pretty good. I'm having many more good days than bad. Sometimes my good days are as simple as feeling average...and I'll take average/boring over suicidal ideations and hopelessness any day.
In the beginning it's so hard to see how anything can get better. I had to believe the people here at SR that things will improve. I made myself believe it.
And I cut myself a break. I stopped beating myself up. I forgave myself...and moved on.
I'm getting better at loving myself with each day that passes. It's important for me. I'm chipping away at years of low self-esteem...and with all the tearing down I'm doing I'm building up a new and better foundation. It's the beginning of my new life.
same planet...different world
Join Date: Sep 2006
Location: Butte, America
Posts: 10,946
I have participated in LifeRing and their advice was to go to AA, only because there are no LifeRing meetings in my area. I will not sit through a Baptist Church service to treat a medical-psychological problem.
No matter how hard you search,
you will never find a system of recovery
that will let you walk in and redesign it
or control it
or be in charge of it.
You cannot enter recovery
from the top of the class.
That's not an issue of some system not working
that... is an issue of pride.
Best of luck to you.
Member
Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: Pugetopolis
Posts: 2,384
Originally Posted by barb dwyer 
I'm offended at this remark.
No matter how hard you search,
you will never find a system of recovery
that will let you walk in and redesign it
or control it
or be in charge of it.
You cannot enter recovery
from the top of the class.
That's not an issue of some system not working
that... is an issue of pride.
Best of luck to you.
No matter how hard you search,
you will never find a system of recovery
that will let you walk in and redesign it
or control it
or be in charge of it.
You cannot enter recovery
from the top of the class.
That's not an issue of some system not working
that... is an issue of pride.
Best of luck to you.
I wish the thanks button worked.
I work on a daily basis with chronic relapsers. To a tee, almost everyone one them thinks they know what they need to do.
If we know so much, what are we doing in detox?
IO Storm
Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Southern California
Posts: 18,436
Originally Posted by barb dwyer
You cannot enter recovery
from the top of the class.
I tried "long enough and hard enough" to do it this way.
It never worked for long...
It's working now..the AA way.
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