Jed

Hi everybody,

I just want to talk to somebody about the last few days.

Kjell

Hello-

Best thing to do is go ahead with your thoughts and you'll get plenty of responses.

You'll find a lot of support here.

Kjell

CarolD

What has been going on in your life?

You type ...we will reply

Welcome .....

Jed

Well, day after Thanksgiving I got stinking drunk and don't remember much. Last night I did the same thing. I can't seem to stop drinking even though I'm putting myself in harms way. My wife is fed up with it I know. My kids are probably scared. This is the first place I've tried to get support. My life story is too long to type here. I guess i just need to interact with someone who understands this addiction.

Jed

...and I'm recently unemployed. Been a month and a half now and I'm not getting unemployment. Funds are tight. I have an interview with EDD on Thursday. Hopefully then I'll start getting some financial support.

Jed

I was diagnosed as alcoholic at age 15. I'm 45 now. I drink just about every day. Once or twice a month I go off the deep end.

Jed

Is there some place I can call and talk to somebody? AA does not work for me.

Kjell

There are other methods and plenty of people on here use alternatives to AA, BUT...

Why doesn't AA work for you?

Jed

I called the police on my wife last night because she took my wallet and keys and wouldn't let me leave the house.

Jed

It's boring to me. The only excitement I had was drinking with some of the people after meetings. I thought there was too much hypocrisy there. No offense to anybody here. It's just my perspective.

Jed

What are the alternatives??

Jed

I seem to be okay with beer. It's when I drink Tequila and the like I get out of control and end up not remembering stuff.

CarolD

Thanks for explaining some of your situation..
Welcome to our recovery communoty ...

I don't know what country you are in but
please see if these numbers are of use for you.

National Drug and Alcohol Treatment Referral Routing Service available at
1-800-662-HELP
This service can provide you with information about treatment programs in your local community and allow you to speak with someone about alcohol problems

UK

AA National Helpline is 0845 769 7555.

As for recovery methods....here is a list for you to explore

The Alcoholism and Addictions Help Forums- by SoberRecovery.com



You will also meet members here who are successfully sober
without a formal program....we are here to support you.

Blessings to you and your family.....

Jed

I know I need help. Something inside wants me to keep fighting that idea. Sobriety scares me to death. I guess I don't mind if nobody replies here. It helps just to write stuff down. I feel like a stranger in my own house lately. After my wife told me how bad I was the other night I told her I'd kill myself and that would be my apology. I can't do that to my kids though. They deserve a dad.

Jed

Thanks Carol.

I live in the USA. You have a ton of posts. Are you an admin here?

Edit. Ah, forum leader. Same thing I suppose.

CarolD

Well....
If they need a Dad and I agree they do....
get busy finding your way into a healthy future.

That's the best gift you can give...

CarolD

What did the police say about your wife's intellegent action?

Jed

Seems like 90% of my drinking is controlled. It's the 10% that isn't. If I could just get rid of that 10%, I'd be alright. I've been taking sleep aids lately. I don't want to pass out into sleep anymore so I thought I'd try these. Seems to have a negative affect on my personality. I'm usually never in a bad mood when I drink. The pills seem to put me in a bad mood the next day. This leads to drinking more at night.

Jed

They said she was just trying to keep me out of trouble by being publicly intoxicated. They did go in and try and retrieve my wallet and keys. Then they drove me to a hotel cause that's where I said I was going. Couldn't do anything there because I had no funds. I ended up going to a bowling alley and using a debit card from an adjacent account to my main and that worked. I bowled a game with a few guys, had a few drinks and then went to a bar/restaurant. Had a few more drinks, called a cab at closing and went home. When I told they cab driver I didn't have any funds except for the debit card he said pay him next time. My wife opened the door and said, "What are YOU doing here?" Nice, huh?

Edit. I still don't have my wallet.

Jed

I'm afraid there's nothing to do except leave when she gets home from work and go get drunk. I can't deal with her anger right now.