A New Beginning
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A New Beginning
Hi Folks,
Well, I've decided to retire my number. I've invested far too much of my time and life in beer and have come to realize it's a mirage. I had quit for a year to prove that I could do it, had asked My Higher Power to take away the urge and miraculously... it was taken away. During this year I would laugh at the thought that I had no urge to drink. It was crazy because that urge always sprang up as the sun fell down... But that urge was gone and I felt great, and free.
So I did the year and on Day 386 I believe it was, I decided to have a couple knowing that I wouldn't go back to drinking like I used to. Well, that was over seven months ago... I've gone a few to several days without drinking here and there, and there have been evenings where I did just have two or three, but honestly drinking has become unmanageable once again and so I am removing it from my equation. If you disengage, every battle's won... and so I disengage from alcohol and once again ask God to take away the urge.
Thank-you for listening Everbody. I just wanted to get honest and share with you all on this, my Day 1 of sobriety.
A wonderful and sober day to all of you,
Butterfly
Well, I've decided to retire my number. I've invested far too much of my time and life in beer and have come to realize it's a mirage. I had quit for a year to prove that I could do it, had asked My Higher Power to take away the urge and miraculously... it was taken away. During this year I would laugh at the thought that I had no urge to drink. It was crazy because that urge always sprang up as the sun fell down... But that urge was gone and I felt great, and free.
So I did the year and on Day 386 I believe it was, I decided to have a couple knowing that I wouldn't go back to drinking like I used to. Well, that was over seven months ago... I've gone a few to several days without drinking here and there, and there have been evenings where I did just have two or three, but honestly drinking has become unmanageable once again and so I am removing it from my equation. If you disengage, every battle's won... and so I disengage from alcohol and once again ask God to take away the urge.
Thank-you for listening Everbody. I just wanted to get honest and share with you all on this, my Day 1 of sobriety.
A wonderful and sober day to all of you,
Butterfly
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Butterfly, your join date says Nov. 2007, so I'm guessing you've been here before. Please stay as long as you can.
I had "brown bottle flu" for so many years, it's frightening how quickly it progressed. Then I switched to vodka, scotch, bourbon, anything to fill the emptiness. Nothing did the trick for very long.
I really admire your honesty, welcome back to sobriety.
I had "brown bottle flu" for so many years, it's frightening how quickly it progressed. Then I switched to vodka, scotch, bourbon, anything to fill the emptiness. Nothing did the trick for very long.
I really admire your honesty, welcome back to sobriety.
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Thank-you Sikkisirus, es0919 and Astro for welcoming me and for your support. Yes, I'd joined here in November of 2007 before my 386 day quit began in February of 2008. I look forward to staying here and learning from you all. A quote that has really helped me and has become a mantra for me is from Kris Kristofferson regarding choosing sobriety:
"But at some point I decided that if it was important enough to me to keep doing it as Art, I should do it with all my tools."
He has a wonderful song called "Chase The Feeling" which I think will ring true with anyone in recovery and/or struggling with addiction.
Thanks again,
Butterfly
"But at some point I decided that if it was important enough to me to keep doing it as Art, I should do it with all my tools."
He has a wonderful song called "Chase The Feeling" which I think will ring true with anyone in recovery and/or struggling with addiction.
Thanks again,
Butterfly
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Location: KC MO
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I quit about ten years ago when I found out I had high bloodpressure. I was going to eat right and exercise and all that.
Well after a month I told myself it was OK as long as I wen't for a bike ride before hand. This wen't pretty good at first. I would ride 12 miles and drink a six pack once a week. I started this in the spring, and by the end of summer I was riding my bike maybe 5 nights a week.(Man I was in good shape).
Winter came on and the bike rides got less and less, and beer got more and more.
I really thought after that first month that I could control it, and I did for a while. But somewhere in not too long a time, I forgot about it. Or made myself forget about it.
Glad you are giving it up. Keep coming back.
Fred
Well after a month I told myself it was OK as long as I wen't for a bike ride before hand. This wen't pretty good at first. I would ride 12 miles and drink a six pack once a week. I started this in the spring, and by the end of summer I was riding my bike maybe 5 nights a week.(Man I was in good shape).
Winter came on and the bike rides got less and less, and beer got more and more.
I really thought after that first month that I could control it, and I did for a while. But somewhere in not too long a time, I forgot about it. Or made myself forget about it.
Glad you are giving it up. Keep coming back.
Fred
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Thanks for sharing your story Fred. I appreciate it. Twelve miles a day, five days a week, you must've been in some kind of shape!
Yes, I sure can identify with the forgetting somewhere along the line... It always creeps back out of control for me. As many say,"Not as bad as some, but worse than others..." but I know it's a progressive disease and I don't want to go any farther down the path.
Thank-you for your support!
Butterfly
Yes, I sure can identify with the forgetting somewhere along the line... It always creeps back out of control for me. As many say,"Not as bad as some, but worse than others..." but I know it's a progressive disease and I don't want to go any farther down the path.
Thank-you for your support!
Butterfly
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