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It doesn't have to be this way Jim. For may of us, myself included, the problem has been removed. It's as if it never existed. There is no part of me that still wants to drink. Therefore, I don't consider myself as still sick.
I appreciate your honesty and am happy for your sobriety. I just want to lay out the possibility for you of a different experience with sobriety. A different freedom, not from the bondage of alcohol, but a new freedom with all of life.
It's available if you want.
I appreciate your honesty and am happy for your sobriety. I just want to lay out the possibility for you of a different experience with sobriety. A different freedom, not from the bondage of alcohol, but a new freedom with all of life.
It's available if you want.
I'm almost at 6yrs now, and I've been thru 4 major surgeries and the loss of my husband, and have had to face up to the demons of major depression and Bipolar2. But I too, stayed sober thru it all.
Way to go lucky, it's a hard thing to do!
I think we all have to reach that point of surrender, I'm done, beat, I can't do this anymore. Then we have to figure out, where do I go from here? I had no clue at how to get sober, I was an expert at being an alcoholic. So I worked a program, half assed it and relapsed, twice. I then tried harder. I realized I wasn't really there yet, I thought I was ready, but wasn't giving it my all. I thought I could cruise through getting sober and the rest would be history.
It doesn't work that way. I had to change my mind, body and soul. To me, that is key. When you are willing to get down and dirty and change your overall being, then you have shot at recovery. It has worked. I have been sober over 5 years now. To me, that is a miracle. I was an end stage alcoholic who didn't do anything without drinking. Towards the end, I had to drink. That was one of the most horrific experiences of my life. I hated what I was doing, but my addiction kept me stuck and I didn't have the know all to get unstuck.
That is where reaching out for support played a part. So now I'm sober, my life has totally turned around. It took a lot of work to get to where I am today. I am not the same person I was in most aspects. But here is the rub, what about tomorrow?
There are no guarantees. There have been so many that have fallen into the trap. I don't want to be that person. I don't want to drink today, but what if that changes tomorrow? That is where I think we have to always keep our guard up and be prepared for the moment when the notion of drinking starts to drift back into our thoughts as a possibility. I can never let that happen. That is my biggest fear. If it does, I'm finished. There is no doubt in my mind that drinking will destroy me. I have come so far and worked so hard, I am not moving backward. I will do whatever it takes so that never happens. Always stay on your toes, I believe.
It doesn't work that way. I had to change my mind, body and soul. To me, that is key. When you are willing to get down and dirty and change your overall being, then you have shot at recovery. It has worked. I have been sober over 5 years now. To me, that is a miracle. I was an end stage alcoholic who didn't do anything without drinking. Towards the end, I had to drink. That was one of the most horrific experiences of my life. I hated what I was doing, but my addiction kept me stuck and I didn't have the know all to get unstuck.
That is where reaching out for support played a part. So now I'm sober, my life has totally turned around. It took a lot of work to get to where I am today. I am not the same person I was in most aspects. But here is the rub, what about tomorrow?
There are no guarantees. There have been so many that have fallen into the trap. I don't want to be that person. I don't want to drink today, but what if that changes tomorrow? That is where I think we have to always keep our guard up and be prepared for the moment when the notion of drinking starts to drift back into our thoughts as a possibility. I can never let that happen. That is my biggest fear. If it does, I'm finished. There is no doubt in my mind that drinking will destroy me. I have come so far and worked so hard, I am not moving backward. I will do whatever it takes so that never happens. Always stay on your toes, I believe.
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Can we go back to having just one drink and put the bottle back on the shelf? Absolutely not.
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