I tried again
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I tried again
As much as it humiliates me and saddens me and disappoints me......
Ive relapsed again...
I thought Id try again... maybe im not REALLY a drunk......
maybe.........
but there ya go... 30 plus days........ and im drunk again...
and cant stop...
how much proof will it take.
Ive relapsed again...
I thought Id try again... maybe im not REALLY a drunk......
maybe.........
but there ya go... 30 plus days........ and im drunk again...
and cant stop...
how much proof will it take.
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Sorry to hear that Deb, you were doing pretty good five days ago but did say that you need to get back to your meetings.
Sometimes we really do know what we need to do ;-)
Can you make a meeting today? It seemed to be working for you pretty well.
Take Care,
NB
09-07-2009, 11:36 PM
09-07-2009, 12:27 PM
Sometimes we really do know what we need to do ;-)
Can you make a meeting today? It seemed to be working for you pretty well.
Take Care,
NB
09-07-2009, 11:36 PM
Originally Posted by debs 
That today I have been sober for 30 days..............
WOOT!
Thanks yall for bein such an awesome source of support for me... Love ya!
WOOT!
Thanks yall for bein such an awesome source of support for me... Love ya!
09-07-2009, 12:27 PM
Originally Posted by debs
Honestly.....
That's a difficult question to answer....
It was almost as if I had an epiphany... I hit a VERY low point... when my son was picked up by his dad at 10 in the morning and I was drunk off my ass....
And the previous week I had binged like never before...
I got scared... for my health... my safety... my child's safety...
I just didn't know how much longer I'd survive going the way I was...
So I went to an AA meeting.... sick as a dog... miserable physically... and terrified...
And I just kept going back to those meetings whenever I possibly could... I did that for a good solid two weeks...
Admittedly, I've not gone the last couple of weeks... for one reason or another... but that first two weeks were the hardest for me... and AA got me through it....
I guess the hard part is just going to be maintaining from here on....
I really need to get back to those meetings...
Above all else, though, I must admit, the only reason I'm sober today is because I prayed desperately for God to deliver me........ and well... he did..
Thanks everybody so much for your support...
This feeling is to die for..... (but I get to keep on livin'!!!)
That's a difficult question to answer....
It was almost as if I had an epiphany... I hit a VERY low point... when my son was picked up by his dad at 10 in the morning and I was drunk off my ass....
And the previous week I had binged like never before...
I got scared... for my health... my safety... my child's safety...
I just didn't know how much longer I'd survive going the way I was...
So I went to an AA meeting.... sick as a dog... miserable physically... and terrified...
And I just kept going back to those meetings whenever I possibly could... I did that for a good solid two weeks...
Admittedly, I've not gone the last couple of weeks... for one reason or another... but that first two weeks were the hardest for me... and AA got me through it....
I guess the hard part is just going to be maintaining from here on....
I really need to get back to those meetings...
Above all else, though, I must admit, the only reason I'm sober today is because I prayed desperately for God to deliver me........ and well... he did..
Thanks everybody so much for your support...
This feeling is to die for..... (but I get to keep on livin'!!!)
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Try to write down what you were doing, thinking, and feeling when you relapsed. Did you "plan" it subconsciously....and then carry out the plan? Or was it an impulsive non-thinking act? You CAN succeed in the battle against relapsing, but it is important to know yourself well and learn what your triggers are.
And, start developing strategies to deal with the those triggers.
And, start developing strategies to deal with the those triggers.
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I hate to hear that debs, but as "Fighting Irish" said above...you only fail if you stop trying. Wake up tomorrow and learn from this experience and try to move forward. Your being honest with everyone and telling what your doing so that's a good thing right there.
Steve
Steve
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Debs Babe,
I still love you and don't think any less of you.
Most of us relapse at some point.
You have received some great advice above, take it and try again, don't give up on yourself.
Remember, you ARE a Goddess and YOU CAN do this.
Much love,
Faerie xx
I still love you and don't think any less of you.
Most of us relapse at some point.
You have received some great advice above, take it and try again, don't give up on yourself.
Remember, you ARE a Goddess and YOU CAN do this.
Much love,
Faerie xx
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Debs, there is nothing to be ashamed of, a LOT of people do it even when they really don't want to. It is pretty much the definition of the problem.
Keep trying and keep trying different things to help.
Keep trying and keep trying different things to help.
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Hey debs.
So sorry. You don't have to do that again. This can be the last time.
Just posted a similar post on another relapse thread. Sounds like you are going to meetings. When I first tried to get sober, it took me a year and a couple of months to stay stopped. My sponsor came into AA and never took a drink again. It takes what it takes, but there are some things that worked for me.
90 meetings in 90 days was great. If I didn't hit a meeting every day, I doubled up when I could. Having a sponsor is critical. Not drinking is pretty much a given to stay sober
The biggest thing is that sobriety must be the most important thing in your life. I once heard someone say that anything you put before your sobriety you will lose.
Keep it simple, live one day/one hour/one moment at a time. Get a sponsor, work the steps, and recover. Your life depends on it, and you CAN do it!
NMB
So sorry. You don't have to do that again. This can be the last time.
Just posted a similar post on another relapse thread. Sounds like you are going to meetings. When I first tried to get sober, it took me a year and a couple of months to stay stopped. My sponsor came into AA and never took a drink again. It takes what it takes, but there are some things that worked for me.
90 meetings in 90 days was great. If I didn't hit a meeting every day, I doubled up when I could. Having a sponsor is critical. Not drinking is pretty much a given to stay sober
The biggest thing is that sobriety must be the most important thing in your life. I once heard someone say that anything you put before your sobriety you will lose.
Keep it simple, live one day/one hour/one moment at a time. Get a sponsor, work the steps, and recover. Your life depends on it, and you CAN do it!
NMB
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Thank yall so much.... this board truly is an awesome source of support for me...
I just have to brush myself off and try again.
I hate it, but the past month is not wasted. I truly believe that.
And tomorrow is a new day.
I just have to brush myself off and try again.
I hate it, but the past month is not wasted. I truly believe that.
And tomorrow is a new day.
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Hey Deb.
Ya know it takes a lot of character to tell others about a fall. I've seen so many people come here and admit another fall and then have others ask "So what are ya gonna do different?" And really, what can anyone say to that? We feel like a turd for falling and now we have someone shakin' us down because what we did just didn't quite do it. Well I know they have it in their hearts all the best for us when we fall. But sometimes it just comes across as cold. I hope it doesn't add to any shame you may be feeling about what happened because shame can keep us down in so many ways.
Just get back up and dust yourself off, girl. For now, shake off the fact that you fell, but learn from it. You're so young. Never give up. Take Stone's advice....keep trying and keep trying different things to help.
Ya know it takes a lot of character to tell others about a fall. I've seen so many people come here and admit another fall and then have others ask "So what are ya gonna do different?" And really, what can anyone say to that? We feel like a turd for falling and now we have someone shakin' us down because what we did just didn't quite do it. Well I know they have it in their hearts all the best for us when we fall. But sometimes it just comes across as cold. I hope it doesn't add to any shame you may be feeling about what happened because shame can keep us down in so many ways.
Just get back up and dust yourself off, girl. For now, shake off the fact that you fell, but learn from it. You're so young. Never give up. Take Stone's advice....keep trying and keep trying different things to help.
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Sorry to hear that debs... You can do totally do this... when the pain exceeds the pleasure you'll do whatever it takes... I have defiantly relapsed before... I hope it never happens again. However if I hadn't I don't know that I'd be as far along as I am now.
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