lucky949

I posted this in the wrong thread, should have posted it here.

I am out of control

It seems like every weekend I push it a little more and things get more and more out of control.

When I drink lately I turn obnoxious and rude.

Last night at a concert I got detained and thrown in an enclosure for drunks by security.

They handcuffed me and made me sit against a wall for an hour........then they kicked me out.

It was an embarassment to me and my family.

I have been so out of control for so long I cannot believe I am not dead or locked up. I must be the luckiest person on earth......but I am beginning to think I am due.

I am scared to death of who I have become. I feel like I am standing outside of myself watching myself do a bunch of things that just aren't me.

I don't seem to be able to control myself. Beers always turn into shots. I lose my memory, drive drunk, antagonize people and make an ass out of myself.

I am going to try and stop...see if i can go 30 days. It is nice to have this forum to write on and read other peoples struggles and realize I am not the only one.

I do not want to die, hurt someone, hurt myself or go to jail.............I have t get myself under control.

DJ1

Welcome you came to the right place to start
its nto going to be easy but it is going to be worth it!! I'm only on day 21 but have
gained a lot on knowledge & help from the forum

Good luck you can do it

CarolD

Yes...quitting alcohol is not at all easy.
However....you too can win People do recover.


Why not ask your doctor about how to be safe
during your initial de tox?

Welcome to SR and our Alcoholism Forum...
Blessings to you and your family

Zencat

Welcome to SoberRecovery.com the forums.

Starting and continuing addiction treatment has been one of the best things I have ever done. I wish you well on your recovery journey .

hendershot

Congratulations and welcome! It sounds like you have a great self-awareness and have come to terms with what alcohol means for you and your life. Wanting to quit and acutally quitting are two different things. Wishing for sobriety is a good first step, don't get me wrong, but you have to take affirmative action. You have to not just put down the drink but change your life. Footwork is necessary: AA, getting involved on the forum here, therapy, other support groups. Welcome to the journey and good luck.

Firehazard

Hello, It sounds like you have just about had it. Alot can happen in a month how about just stopping today then work on tommorow when it gets here?

Ready 2 Rock

Great to see you here. Unlike me, you can avoid the "YETS".

Haven't had a DUI...YET.
No divorce...YET.
No job loss...YET.
....etc.

Most of us have found AA to be the best option.

Keep coming back.

R2R

FightOn

It's really great that you came here before you had a tragedy. Keep posting, go to meetings, do what you need to do. It will be far easier to quit now than having to live with the pain of a DUI, an accident, or worse. Find what works for you and keep trying to stick with it. It may not be easy, but it will be well worth it.