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Hey
First off appologies if this is in the wrong section, please move it if it is.
Hi, I'm Buckaroo.
I'm an alcoholic, been drinking heavy for about 15/20 years. My gf has been reading alot on this site so I thought I should give the community a whirl.
To sum me up, I'm weak willed, minded. Have lost most of my 'life skills'. Feel incredible fear at most things now. Low to the point of crying. On the verge of living on the street and so on... But I'm starting to face things. Instead of panic attacs to the point of tunnel vision at the doctors, well I learned its not that bad.
A poor introduction so appologies for that but yeah.. Hello
Hi, I'm Buckaroo.
I'm an alcoholic, been drinking heavy for about 15/20 years. My gf has been reading alot on this site so I thought I should give the community a whirl.
To sum me up, I'm weak willed, minded. Have lost most of my 'life skills'. Feel incredible fear at most things now. Low to the point of crying. On the verge of living on the street and so on... But I'm starting to face things. Instead of panic attacs to the point of tunnel vision at the doctors, well I learned its not that bad.
A poor introduction so appologies for that but yeah.. Hello
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Howdy Buckaroo,
I can relate to the constant fear thing. Towards the end of my drinking, I could barely leave the house witout being in a panic.
Others may disagree, but I don't think willpower has anything to do with it. It's one of the reasons that getting and staying sober is so difficult and frustrating. I thought I could work my out of it. I thought that if I really wanted to be sober bad enough, that I'd be able to.
What I found was that I was miserable, and that my willpower was not sufficient to overcome alcoholism. It wasn't because I was a loser, or weak minded or weak willed. It was just that I lacked the sufficient power.
If you'd like to quit drinking for good and all, AA may have a solution for you.
I can relate to the constant fear thing. Towards the end of my drinking, I could barely leave the house witout being in a panic.
Others may disagree, but I don't think willpower has anything to do with it. It's one of the reasons that getting and staying sober is so difficult and frustrating. I thought I could work my out of it. I thought that if I really wanted to be sober bad enough, that I'd be able to.
What I found was that I was miserable, and that my willpower was not sufficient to overcome alcoholism. It wasn't because I was a loser, or weak minded or weak willed. It was just that I lacked the sufficient power.
If you'd like to quit drinking for good and all, AA may have a solution for you.
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Hey and Welcome
I was also strongly encouraged to attend either NA or AA meetings when I was in treatment. At first, they were not my cup of tea (or coffee as it were) but I can say that I give much of the credit for my almost 7 years of sobriety to the people I met at those meetings. When I got out of treatment, I had no idea how to stay sober and be happy for the long term. They did and they were willing to tell me how they did it. So, for me, the 12 step solution was my solution after all.
Still, 12 step programs are not for everybody, so if you go another route, go that other route to the full. There is absolutely no reason to try to do this thing all by yourself. It's not like you get bonus points for doing it without support.
I was also strongly encouraged to attend either NA or AA meetings when I was in treatment. At first, they were not my cup of tea (or coffee as it were) but I can say that I give much of the credit for my almost 7 years of sobriety to the people I met at those meetings. When I got out of treatment, I had no idea how to stay sober and be happy for the long term. They did and they were willing to tell me how they did it. So, for me, the 12 step solution was my solution after all.
Still, 12 step programs are not for everybody, so if you go another route, go that other route to the full. There is absolutely no reason to try to do this thing all by yourself. It's not like you get bonus points for doing it without support.
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Hey and Welcome
I was also strongly encouraged to attend either NA or AA meetings when I was in treatment. At first, they were not my cup of tea (or coffee as it were) but I can say that I give much of the credit for my almost 7 years of sobriety to the people I met at those meetings. When I got out of treatment, I had no idea how to stay sober and be happy for the long term. They did and they were willing to tell me how they did it. So, for me, the 12 step solution was my solution after all.
Still, 12 step programs are not for everybody, so if you go another route, go that other route to the full. There is absolutely no reason to try to do this thing all by yourself. It's not like you get bonus points for doing it without support.
I was also strongly encouraged to attend either NA or AA meetings when I was in treatment. At first, they were not my cup of tea (or coffee as it were) but I can say that I give much of the credit for my almost 7 years of sobriety to the people I met at those meetings. When I got out of treatment, I had no idea how to stay sober and be happy for the long term. They did and they were willing to tell me how they did it. So, for me, the 12 step solution was my solution after all.
Still, 12 step programs are not for everybody, so if you go another route, go that other route to the full. There is absolutely no reason to try to do this thing all by yourself. It's not like you get bonus points for doing it without support.
Welcome, how long have you been sober?
I don't attend AA, so I'm not going to also suggest it.. (tho it can't be worse than "nothing"). Maybe individual therapy? there's lots of ways to get and stay sober..
You say you want to "do this" just once? Do what? With no plan?
I don't attend AA, so I'm not going to also suggest it.. (tho it can't be worse than "nothing"). Maybe individual therapy? there's lots of ways to get and stay sober..
You say you want to "do this" just once? Do what? With no plan?
Hey Buckaroo, wecome. Start by not apologizing and putting yourseld down, it won't help and you are all you got, so living with and loving yourself will go hand in hand with your sobriety. I don't think rehab is supposed to be anyones cup of tea. It wasn't mine--up at 6 to do nothing but get blood pressure and meds, check out a shower head, eat breakfast, at least they said it was, attend chalktalk, etc. For what it cost me I could have taken a world cruise. Attended AA like they said, still do--me an agnostic Buddhist in the rooms? Not my cup of Chinese tea but I did it and do it and today I am 100 daze sober. That makes it worth it for me, it is everything. My esteem grew and flowered in the manure of my self-hate and self-pity.
“Unfortunately, most of us don’t allow our cherished thoughts—our beliefs, our hatreds, our infatuations, our opinions, our calculations, our obsessions, our joys, our sorrows—to dissipate. In fact, we don’t even notice that they can dissipate because we’re so earnestly hanging on to them. We don’t even notice that they’re only thought.
Without realizing it, we hang on most dearly to what causes us the most grief and pain. At the same time, we reject freedom, fearing that somehow we’ll lose something valuable in the process.”—Steve Hagen
For this one, sobriety is freedom. May you know it now. Namaste
“Unfortunately, most of us don’t allow our cherished thoughts—our beliefs, our hatreds, our infatuations, our opinions, our calculations, our obsessions, our joys, our sorrows—to dissipate. In fact, we don’t even notice that they can dissipate because we’re so earnestly hanging on to them. We don’t even notice that they’re only thought.
Without realizing it, we hang on most dearly to what causes us the most grief and pain. At the same time, we reject freedom, fearing that somehow we’ll lose something valuable in the process.”—Steve Hagen
For this one, sobriety is freedom. May you know it now. Namaste
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Thanks for the welcome guys.
I think I will need a medicated detox at first but I have no idea of what a librium detox will be like, can anyon shed some light on this please?
My main goal is 1 month sober, something that seems unreal now but I think if I get a month under my belt I will atleast know its posible unlike now where I'm very sceptical of my abbility.
I think I will need a medicated detox at first but I have no idea of what a librium detox will be like, can anyon shed some light on this please?
My main goal is 1 month sober, something that seems unreal now but I think if I get a month under my belt I will atleast know its posible unlike now where I'm very sceptical of my abbility.
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Thanks for the welcome guys.
I think I will need a medicated detox at first but I have no idea of what a librium detox will be like, can anyon shed some light on this please?
My main goal is 1 month sober, something that seems unreal now but I think if I get a month under my belt I will atleast know its posible unlike now where I'm very sceptical of my abbility.
I think I will need a medicated detox at first but I have no idea of what a librium detox will be like, can anyon shed some light on this please?
My main goal is 1 month sober, something that seems unreal now but I think if I get a month under my belt I will atleast know its posible unlike now where I'm very sceptical of my abbility.
Feel free to ask me any questions you want. This was only 3.5 months ago so it's still pretty fresh in my mind.
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Here is info and some of our experiences with de toxing
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
I'm glad you are seeking medical advice...there are so many ways
withdrawing alone is dangerous....that is a wise move..
Keep posting...we do care
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
I'm glad you are seeking medical advice...there are so many ways
withdrawing alone is dangerous....that is a wise move..
Keep posting...we do care
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Cheers Carol. i read the intire thread yesterday, but didnt see anything on librum detoxin.
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Cheers Carol. i read the intire thread yesterday, but didnt see anything on librum detoxin.
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