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Old 07-15-2009, 05:08 AM
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Hey

First off appologies if this is in the wrong section, please move it if it is.

Hi, I'm Buckaroo.

I'm an alcoholic, been drinking heavy for about 15/20 years. My gf has been reading alot on this site so I thought I should give the community a whirl.

To sum me up, I'm weak willed, minded. Have lost most of my 'life skills'. Feel incredible fear at most things now. Low to the point of crying. On the verge of living on the street and so on... But I'm starting to face things. Instead of panic attacs to the point of tunnel vision at the doctors, well I learned its not that bad.

A poor introduction so appologies for that but yeah.. Hello
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Old 07-15-2009, 07:11 AM
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Howdy Buckaroo,

I can relate to the constant fear thing. Towards the end of my drinking, I could barely leave the house witout being in a panic.

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To sum me up, I'm weak willed, minded.
Others may disagree, but I don't think willpower has anything to do with it. It's one of the reasons that getting and staying sober is so difficult and frustrating. I thought I could work my out of it. I thought that if I really wanted to be sober bad enough, that I'd be able to.

What I found was that I was miserable, and that my willpower was not sufficient to overcome alcoholism. It wasn't because I was a loser, or weak minded or weak willed. It was just that I lacked the sufficient power.

If you'd like to quit drinking for good and all, AA may have a solution for you.
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Old 07-15-2009, 09:42 AM
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Welcome to the SR community.

Why not attend a few A.A. meetings for awhile
and see what kind of help is available to you?
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Old 07-15-2009, 10:05 AM
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Welcome to the SR community.

Why not attend a few A.A. meetings for awhile
and see what kind of help is available to you?
Well I just left rehab, I found it profoundly wrong for me, part of the deal there was I had to attend AA or NA.
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Old 07-15-2009, 11:05 AM
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Hi and Welcome.....

What are your plans for staying sober?
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Old 07-15-2009, 11:36 AM
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I'm still working on that Carol. I'll keep you updated.
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Old 07-15-2009, 11:39 AM
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Hey and Welcome

I was also strongly encouraged to attend either NA or AA meetings when I was in treatment. At first, they were not my cup of tea (or coffee as it were) but I can say that I give much of the credit for my almost 7 years of sobriety to the people I met at those meetings. When I got out of treatment, I had no idea how to stay sober and be happy for the long term. They did and they were willing to tell me how they did it. So, for me, the 12 step solution was my solution after all.

Still, 12 step programs are not for everybody, so if you go another route, go that other route to the full. There is absolutely no reason to try to do this thing all by yourself. It's not like you get bonus points for doing it without support.
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Old 07-15-2009, 11:43 AM
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Hey and Welcome

I was also strongly encouraged to attend either NA or AA meetings when I was in treatment. At first, they were not my cup of tea (or coffee as it were) but I can say that I give much of the credit for my almost 7 years of sobriety to the people I met at those meetings. When I got out of treatment, I had no idea how to stay sober and be happy for the long term. They did and they were willing to tell me how they did it. So, for me, the 12 step solution was my solution after all.

Still, 12 step programs are not for everybody, so if you go another route, go that other route to the full. There is absolutely no reason to try to do this thing all by yourself. It's not like you get bonus points for doing it without support.
Thanks, it may be what i need. but I dont want to mess this up so im not rushing into failier. I want to do this just once.
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Old 07-15-2009, 12:59 PM
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Welcome, how long have you been sober?

I don't attend AA, so I'm not going to also suggest it.. (tho it can't be worse than "nothing"). Maybe individual therapy? there's lots of ways to get and stay sober..

You say you want to "do this" just once? Do what? With no plan?
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Hey Buckaroo, wecome. Start by not apologizing and putting yourseld down, it won't help and you are all you got, so living with and loving yourself will go hand in hand with your sobriety. I don't think rehab is supposed to be anyones cup of tea. It wasn't mine--up at 6 to do nothing but get blood pressure and meds, check out a shower head, eat breakfast, at least they said it was, attend chalktalk, etc. For what it cost me I could have taken a world cruise. Attended AA like they said, still do--me an agnostic Buddhist in the rooms? Not my cup of Chinese tea but I did it and do it and today I am 100 daze sober. That makes it worth it for me, it is everything. My esteem grew and flowered in the manure of my self-hate and self-pity.

“Unfortunately, most of us don’t allow our cherished thoughts—our beliefs, our hatreds, our infatuations, our opinions, our calculations, our obsessions, our joys, our sorrows—to dissipate. In fact, we don’t even notice that they can dissipate because we’re so earnestly hanging on to them. We don’t even notice that they’re only thought.

Without realizing it, we hang on most dearly to what causes us the most grief and pain. At the same time, we reject freedom, fearing that somehow we’ll lose something valuable in the process.”—Steve Hagen

For this one, sobriety is freedom. May you know it now. Namaste
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Old 07-16-2009, 04:12 AM
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Thanks for the welcome guys.

I think I will need a medicated detox at first but I have no idea of what a librium detox will be like, can anyon shed some light on this please?

My main goal is 1 month sober, something that seems unreal now but I think if I get a month under my belt I will atleast know its posible unlike now where I'm very sceptical of my abbility.
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Originally Posted by Buckaroo View Post
Thanks for the welcome guys.

I think I will need a medicated detox at first but I have no idea of what a librium detox will be like, can anyon shed some light on this please?

My main goal is 1 month sober, something that seems unreal now but I think if I get a month under my belt I will atleast know its posible unlike now where I'm very sceptical of my abbility.
I had a medicated detox. I did it at home. The medication was prescribed by my addiction specialist who I still see regularly. The drug was Serapax (not librium but similar) which I took for a few days while going through the worst of it (I did it over the Easter 4 day weekend). I found I felt quite out of it for the 4 days. I was sleepy and dopey, but I didn't want to drink.

Feel free to ask me any questions you want. This was only 3.5 months ago so it's still pretty fresh in my mind.
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Old 07-16-2009, 05:56 AM
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Here is info and some of our experiences with de toxing

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

I'm glad you are seeking medical advice...there are so many ways
withdrawing alone is dangerous....that is a wise move..

Keep posting...we do care
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Old 07-16-2009, 06:07 AM
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Here is info and some of our experiences with de toxing



I'm glad you are seeking medical advice...there are so many ways
withdrawing alone is dangerous....that is a wise move..

Keep posting...we do care
Cheers Carol. i read the intire thread yesterday, but didnt see anything on librum detoxin.
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Old 07-16-2009, 08:23 AM
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Cheers Carol. i read the intire thread yesterday, but didnt see anything on librum detoxin.
SR members are not allowed to give advice on such matters.
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10. Medical Advice: No Posts giving medical advice, medication advice, or psychiatric advice. Do not use the forum to give or ask for professional medical or psychiatric advice. If you are a medical professional, please remember the forums and chat are for peer support only and not to be used for distributing professional medical advice and/or using the forum to represent your professional services. Medical and Psychiatric advice includes giving a diagnosis, treatment plan, medication advice and dosage suggestions, over the counter and natural home remedies that should be approved by medical professionals. Detox can be dangerous and life threatening at times. Please consult with your physician.
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