sunrise1

if I didn't know better, I'd swear today was a test in every way to make me break. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Oh, and one more thing... Please keep me from choking the crap out of someone who deserves it.


S

Dee74

more prayer, less choking sunrise

can you talk a walk or something, anything to relax?
I hope things get better

D

mtnmagic

Oh Sunrise, I hear you. I'm new to sobriety for the millionth time. I understand what you are feeling.

Getting close to three months, and there are really good days and really bad days.

Stay close here, keep posting and just take each moment at a time.

tommyk

Study the 12 steps.

I feel the steps have helped me to nearly eliminate this type of thinking.

Believe808

Breathe sunrise. Just take a few minutes and concentrate on breathing. It does help

Dime

I remember early on realizing that everyday would did not go to plan and I that I used to anesthetize myself so I didn't have to deal with things.

Eventually I realized that my worst expectations didn't seem to materialize and that if I keep myself calm the whole process was a lot easier.

Thanks for the reminder. I still tend to forget how responsible I am for my own feelings and that I generate a lot of my own grief.

sunrise1

Thanks, everyone. You are my lifeline this weekend. I will not drink today and I'll try really hard not to choke someone. I brought my BB with me- I guess this would be a good time for it.

joedris

I occasionally reach the point where I say "Patience, my ass. I'm going to kill someone!"
And I've heard said here in Dixie, "He needed killing." So don't despair if you feel the need to choke someone, they probably deserve it. And having recognized that fact, go on your merry way. Don't going to let some idiot affect your serenity. You worked too hard to achieve it.

sunrise1

It seems as if the worst of the weekend is over and I've made it. I have more faith in my HP as a result because I do know I couldn't have done this by myself.

Mark75

oh!... I though you meant BB gun... never mind!



Mark

sunrise1

BB gun? If we ever make this trip again, that's a GREAT idea!!

Just kidding.

yeahgr8

hope you feel a bit better after a read:-)

i've been using thy will, not mine, be done and live and let live, the first i am using about 5-10 times a day! the danger for me is to dwell on it, i think a decision needs to be made either choke the ****** or not, if not (i'm pretty sure this will be god's will 99.9% of the time) then forget about it, say a prayer, read 12by12/BB/Living Sober/Daily reflections etc (building up my tool box;-))...

all in all it's less work than a 10 hour stint in the bar hehe