12 years
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12 years
it has been 12 years since I had a drink and yet for the last couple of days it is all I can think of!
I don't know why. Yes, life is alittle stressfull right now but over the years it has been way more stressfull than it is now and I haven't wanted a drink!
I am 99% sure that I am not going to go have one.....it is that 1% that worries me!!!
I don't know why. Yes, life is alittle stressfull right now but over the years it has been way more stressfull than it is now and I haven't wanted a drink!
I am 99% sure that I am not going to go have one.....it is that 1% that worries me!!!
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Thanks!
No, I have never go to any meetings! I am not comfortable going in the small town I live in.
I just keep reminding myself of what life was like when I was drinking and I know that I don't want to go back to that!!
Hopefully today goes well!!
No, I have never go to any meetings! I am not comfortable going in the small town I live in.
I just keep reminding myself of what life was like when I was drinking and I know that I don't want to go back to that!!
Hopefully today goes well!!
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Personally, I strongly believe in face to face support (AA, counselling) however SR is a great tool to help get through those rough days. Keep posting!
This too shall pass. Just don't drink.
This too shall pass. Just don't drink.
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Join Date: Apr 2008
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Congrats on your twelve years- the fact that you are worried about that "1%" should bode well for you- you're NOT resting on your laurels & you still are taking it seriously. You'll be fine. Celebrate & have some lobster tails today- you deserve it!
same planet...different world
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tweleve years - holy CRAP!!!!!
git to a meetin!!!!!
They give prizes
little things that look like money
but are personally far more valueable
and have cake and stuff for long stuff like that!!!
git to a meetin!!!!!
They give prizes
little things that look like money
but are personally far more valueable
and have cake and stuff for long stuff like that!!!
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Location: Dayton, Ohio
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Twelve Years! Good for you! I'm glad to see that you aren't taking that twelve years as a guarantee that everything will be fine. As you know, this disease is patient, extremely patient in your case. . . it's been sitting by, just waiting for the opportunity to rear it's ugly head. Telling on your disease is a great start to not let that 1% grow.
Ok, if you won't go to a Meeting in your hometown, how about a roadtrip? It's very easy to find Meetings, just google away! What better way to celebrate Memorial Day than to remember what it was like so you don't go back? If you are dead set, won't budge, refuse to go to a Meeting, stick around with us today or call a sober friend. You can always throw together a quick cookout with a few friends or get a bucket of chicken and go sit in a park. Memorize the alphabet backwards, just keep yourself busy so that 1% doesn't have a chance to grow.
Hugs & Blessings,
Judy
Ok, if you won't go to a Meeting in your hometown, how about a roadtrip? It's very easy to find Meetings, just google away! What better way to celebrate Memorial Day than to remember what it was like so you don't go back? If you are dead set, won't budge, refuse to go to a Meeting, stick around with us today or call a sober friend. You can always throw together a quick cookout with a few friends or get a bucket of chicken and go sit in a park. Memorize the alphabet backwards, just keep yourself busy so that 1% doesn't have a chance to grow.
Hugs & Blessings,
Judy
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Thanks everyone!!
I know I should go to meetings..........but where I work we help out families...........and I worry that I would go to a meeting and a parent would be there that just early that day I was helping out with parenting skills. I feel like it would be a weird thing!!
I also don't feel like I would get much support from family and friends if I was to go. Nobody around me now knew me when I was drinking and doing drugs. I get the feeling from some of them that they don't think it was a big deal. I didn't do rehab or AA and I guess they figure that it couldn't of been that bad!
I am feeling a bit better now! But it gets worst at night and early in the morning!
Thanks again.....I always know that I can get support here!!
I know I should go to meetings..........but where I work we help out families...........and I worry that I would go to a meeting and a parent would be there that just early that day I was helping out with parenting skills. I feel like it would be a weird thing!!
I also don't feel like I would get much support from family and friends if I was to go. Nobody around me now knew me when I was drinking and doing drugs. I get the feeling from some of them that they don't think it was a big deal. I didn't do rehab or AA and I guess they figure that it couldn't of been that bad!
I am feeling a bit better now! But it gets worst at night and early in the morning!
Thanks again.....I always know that I can get support here!!
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I find prayer immensley helpful in all situations.
It really comforts me.
Here's one often used in AA....The Serenity Prayer
"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I can not change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference"
Blessings to you and your family.....
It really comforts me.
Here's one often used in AA....The Serenity Prayer
"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I can not change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference"
Blessings to you and your family.....
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Originally Posted by cevin 
it has been 12 years since I had a drink and yet for the last couple of days it is all I can think of!
I don't know why. Yes, life is alittle stressfull right now but over the years it has been way more stressfull than it is now and I haven't wanted a drink!
I am 99% sure that I am not going to go have one.....it is that 1% that worries me!!!
I don't know why. Yes, life is alittle stressfull right now but over the years it has been way more stressfull than it is now and I haven't wanted a drink!
I am 99% sure that I am not going to go have one.....it is that 1% that worries me!!!
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Join Date: Sep 2005
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Hi cevin,
Congrats on 12 years!!!!
Don't throw it away. You are fortunate that nobody around you knew you when you drank or did drugs....you should keep it that way.
You say it gets worse at night or early in the morning. Is there something you could change in your pattern to help you with the thoughts? Perhaps a change in routine could be positive.
I can relate to your reasons for not going to meetings. SR is a great resource. I'm in the liquor business, and I was worried about being seen at meetings. I got over this fear when I decided that I am worth it, and I'd do anything for "comfortable" sobriety. For me, it's one thing to quit drinking...but another thing to overcome feelings of alienation and isolation.
You are fortunate to be in a "helping" profession. My opinion is that going to meetings could strengthen your ability to help families....but that's just my opinion. If you ran into a parent who you were helping, that person would have a solid example of someone who is helping him/herself. With 12 years of sobriety, I doubt anybody who is struggling would look down on you....if anything, they'd probably want to get to where you are in life. Again, this is only an opinion.
Anyway, 12 years a big accomplishment. I hope I can stay sober as long as you. You've certainly made some very good choices in your life.
chip
Congrats on 12 years!!!!
Don't throw it away. You are fortunate that nobody around you knew you when you drank or did drugs....you should keep it that way.
You say it gets worse at night or early in the morning. Is there something you could change in your pattern to help you with the thoughts? Perhaps a change in routine could be positive.
I can relate to your reasons for not going to meetings. SR is a great resource. I'm in the liquor business, and I was worried about being seen at meetings. I got over this fear when I decided that I am worth it, and I'd do anything for "comfortable" sobriety. For me, it's one thing to quit drinking...but another thing to overcome feelings of alienation and isolation.
You are fortunate to be in a "helping" profession. My opinion is that going to meetings could strengthen your ability to help families....but that's just my opinion. If you ran into a parent who you were helping, that person would have a solid example of someone who is helping him/herself. With 12 years of sobriety, I doubt anybody who is struggling would look down on you....if anything, they'd probably want to get to where you are in life. Again, this is only an opinion.
Anyway, 12 years a big accomplishment. I hope I can stay sober as long as you. You've certainly made some very good choices in your life.
chip
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cevin,
Congrats on your time! Did you know AA/NA has "open" meetings where anyone can attend? I know a few people in the caring fields who go just so they know how it works.
AA/NA also has "closed meetings where only alcoholics and addicts are permitted.
You might check it out. I went out after eleven years. It hasn't changed much. Other than it's so much worse!
Love,
Lenina
Congrats on your time! Did you know AA/NA has "open" meetings where anyone can attend? I know a few people in the caring fields who go just so they know how it works.
AA/NA also has "closed meetings where only alcoholics and addicts are permitted.
You might check it out. I went out after eleven years. It hasn't changed much. Other than it's so much worse!
Love,
Lenina
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Cevin....welcome to SR!
I TOTALLY understand why you can't go to a meeting. I, too, live in a very small (narrowminded) town. If I went to meetings, I would seriously lose my job. Seriously.
So...what I want to tell you, is that you are an Inspiration to me, to have gotten sober on your own.....and stayed that way for 12 years. Thank you.
I would say, to stick around SR. It is my AA.
I TOTALLY understand why you can't go to a meeting. I, too, live in a very small (narrowminded) town. If I went to meetings, I would seriously lose my job. Seriously.
So...what I want to tell you, is that you are an Inspiration to me, to have gotten sober on your own.....and stayed that way for 12 years. Thank you.
I would say, to stick around SR. It is my AA.
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Thanks everyone!:ghug
Your words have really helped me these last couple of days. I am feeling better about that 1%. I think it is down to .5%
I guess I was stressed out about more than I thought I was!
Your words have really helped me these last couple of days. I am feeling better about that 1%. I think it is down to .5%
I guess I was stressed out about more than I thought I was!
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