Am I an alcoholic?
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Join Date: Apr 2009
Location: Southern Colorado
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I am 23 years old and I hate to admit it but I dont like the idea of NEVER having alcohol EVER again. Which is what scares me about AA. I want to get control of my drinking before it gets control of me if it hasn't already.
I would go for longer but I am getting married in a month and I am going on an All Inclusive honeymoon with free booze and food and I feel that the temptation in that situation will be too much for me to bare...
I would go for longer but I am getting married in a month and I am going on an All Inclusive honeymoon with free booze and food and I feel that the temptation in that situation will be too much for me to bare...
In fact, in the midst of the chaos of our pretty fun reception, we were dancing our erses off and I saw my FIL going up to the bar and I thought I'd join him and maybe have a couple shots of Cuervo with him. He ordered a sprite! I said, "Sprite? Sounds like a good idea", so I followed suit. The wedding ended fine, we went off on our honeymoon, and within about 3 days of drinking all the Coronas, Pina Coladas, and other free rum drinks down at the beach, I started to realize that my drinking was back to usual. At one point, I was arguing with her and I'd dropped my glass drink out by the pool... and as I watched that rum evaporate in the Carribean sun, "Here I go again." I realized I'd lost control again and there wasn't much I could do about it.
But, good luck to you. Some can control their drinking and some can't. If you're gonna attempt entire abstinence, that's your choice. The AA book talks about "no lurking notion". I see lurking notions all over this situation.
Does your wife-to-be know you might be potential alky and what are her thoughts about that?
My first wife met me as a drunk. When I sobered up, she left me. My 2nd wife met me sober and she likes me sober.
Just my experience.
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Join Date: May 2009
Location: Trussville, AL
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My fiancee met me as a drinker but has seen my drinking in bad stages and would like for me to either get control of the quantity I take in during drinking or quit completely just like me.
Last night my fiancee and I went to a Coldplay concert and I had to stare down the barrel of temptation at every turn. Everyone had a beer or mixed drink in their hand besides me and my fiancee. I made it through the concert (not easily) completely sober and I had a great time. I don't consider myself to have won the war just because I made it through that but I feel like I won the first of many battles in the war.
Last night my fiancee and I went to a Coldplay concert and I had to stare down the barrel of temptation at every turn. Everyone had a beer or mixed drink in their hand besides me and my fiancee. I made it through the concert (not easily) completely sober and I had a great time. I don't consider myself to have won the war just because I made it through that but I feel like I won the first of many battles in the war.
hello and welcome to sr...and thanks for your post asking for opinions.
one sentence stuck out for me..."I am usually hammered or sober, no real in betweens for me"
i had times in my very early drinking career where i had an element of "choice".
or rather things that got in the way......work= money for booze....babys= used up money for booze.......etc.
my question would be....if you got fired..would you drink all week?...if you had more money would you drink more?
that moment in time where i still had a choice.......changed..
it changed ....to the only choice......for me alcoholism progressed into a monster to the point where it was all existed for.
look back.........can you remember a time when you didnt get smashed at weekends?.............can you see some progression?
if your worried and concerned......stop drinking....if you can.
in my experience.......normal social drinkers dont come to sites full of alcholics asking about there drinking...
Keep posting............trucker
one sentence stuck out for me..."I am usually hammered or sober, no real in betweens for me"
i had times in my very early drinking career where i had an element of "choice".
or rather things that got in the way......work= money for booze....babys= used up money for booze.......etc.
my question would be....if you got fired..would you drink all week?...if you had more money would you drink more?
that moment in time where i still had a choice.......changed..
it changed ....to the only choice......for me alcoholism progressed into a monster to the point where it was all existed for.
look back.........can you remember a time when you didnt get smashed at weekends?.............can you see some progression?
if your worried and concerned......stop drinking....if you can.
in my experience.......normal social drinkers dont come to sites full of alcholics asking about there drinking...
Keep posting............trucker
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Join Date: Apr 2009
Location: cottondale,al35453
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Clay dont think of long term sobriety ,think of one day at a time,even one hour at a time, Get a bi book ,a 12 step book go to aa meetings get a sponsor and let a hier power lead your life. What do you have to loose if you try?
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: New Zealand
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Alcoholism is hell. If you let it carry on it will get worse and when you dont think it can get any worse, youre wrong, it can.
If you are concerned about your drinking, do something about it now, because its only going to get more and more difficult and complicated.
If you are concerned about your drinking, do something about it now, because its only going to get more and more difficult and complicated.
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Join Date: May 2009
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I am seeing how well I can do on my own before I do the whole AA give it up for life completely. I want to see if I am capable of going without it completely for a while on my own. Then if I pass that test I want to see if I am capable of social drinking occasionally without getting hammered anymore. If I can't handle either one of those things AA will likely be the way I go.
Thanks again to everyone for all of your advice and concern. One week and I still haven' t had a drop. The concert was a temptation to drink but I made it through and I am happy I did.
Thanks again to everyone for all of your advice and concern. One week and I still haven' t had a drop. The concert was a temptation to drink but I made it through and I am happy I did.
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I am seeing how well I can do on my own before I do the whole AA give it up for life completely. I want to see if I am capable of going without it completely for a while on my own. Then if I pass that test I want to see if I am capable of social drinking occasionally without getting hammered anymore. If I can't handle either one of those things AA will likely be the way I go.
Thanks again to everyone for all of your advice and concern. One week and I still haven' t had a drop. The concert was a temptation to drink but I made it through and I am happy I did.
Thanks again to everyone for all of your advice and concern. One week and I still haven' t had a drop. The concert was a temptation to drink but I made it through and I am happy I did.
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