suki44883

I've had it! No more! She OD'd again. This is the 5th or 6th time in the past year. She cannot come back here when she's released from the hospital. She's almost 20 years old. I can't do this anymore. Why I haven't gotten sh*tface drunk I do not know.

Oh...wait! Here's a glass of wine, now!

serenityqueen

I hope to God you don't have a glass of wine sitting in front of you. If you do, POUR IT OUT NOW!!

I know you have stood by your daughter many times but you're going to have to stick by your decision and not let her come back there. She's 20 years old, your days of being "responsible" for her are long gone.

least

Maybe you haven't gotten *********-drunk cause you know it won't help anything and will only make things worse. I'm sorry you are going thru this again, but you can be strong and stay sober for yourself.:ghug3

Freedom1990

No one in my life is worth throwing away my recovery over. I did that once after 4 years in the program. It wasn't worth it, not even remotely so.

suki44883

I'm not a wine drinker. I'm a beer bag. I didn't want to buy beer, so I got a bottle of wine. I know you'll disapprove, but I'll have a couple of glasses and then go to bed. I'm not going anywhere. I've been crying too much and my eyes are swollen.

serenityqueen

Ah, Suki, please go pour the wine out. You know that it isn't going to help anything what so ever! The only thing it's going to do is have you wake up feeling worse than you do right now. You don't need that on top of everything else that's going on.

Just pour the rest out, your next trip to the store could be for beer instead of wine. It's very easy to tell ourselves that we already drank so we might as well go get our drink of choice.

Drinking isn't going to make anything change, isn't going to get your daughter the help she needs.

CarolD

You know this is not a good idea.
It's only going to make the situation worse.

I am sorry your daughter is useing
and I am sorry you are going to as well.

suki44883

Like I told my older daughter...the wine is helping me cry. I need to cry. I've tried to be too strong throughout this entire ordeal. Please don't think I'm not hearing what you are all saying. It's just that I need to cry.

Freedom1990

That's too bad. However you're free to do whatever you please.

Drinking never solved a damned thing for me. I've been through divorce, my oldest daughter's addiction, and my youngest daughter running away at 15 with a 24 year old predator. That's the short list.

I made the choice to pick up the phone and call my sponsor. I attended meetings with a vengeance.

I'm glad I made those choices.

serenityqueen

You're going to practice some tough love because you care about what happens to your daughter, so since I care about what happens to you, I'm going to practice some tough love here myself.

Suki, you don''t need the wine to help you cry! That's just an excuse and you know darn well it is. You wanted to numb yourself so you didn't have to feel this pain. From one alcoholic to another, I know the excuses, I used them myself. So stop trying to make excuses up, pour the wine out and get some sleep.

I DO care!
Judy

suki44883

I'm glad you did, too, Freedom. I'll be fine. Tomorrow I'll go back to work like nothing happened. My daughter didn't OD for the umteenth time and life is just one big bowl of cherries.

Charmie

i hope you didnt drink.worst day sober is nowhere near anything like a day drinking.and that includes your daughters ods.life isnt a bowl of cherries for lots of folk.i was at a close family members funeral last week and it sucked.it was my mums younger brother n my mum has drink issues too.my point is because i was sober it could all be dealt with.if i had been drunk i wouldnt have even attended.how are you going to be of any use to your daughter a drunk? i lost mine when she was 12,she went to live with my sister,shes nearly 17 now n boy did she go through some times with me,,she did some dumb stuff herself too but i am there for her and of use simply because im sober.dont drink.you know it will only get worse.after my mum saw me od for the 6th time she walked away,said no more and stuck to it.although i went on to drink for another 4 yrs i never od again.wish you well.

Anna

Suki,

I am sorry you're going through this.

For me, recovery has been about finding better and healthy ways to deal with life's ups and downs.

suki44883

I had 3 glasses of wine. I'm finished now. I am okay. I just needed something to relax me a bit. I am drinking iced tea now.

Rowan

I'm sorry for your situation. I hope you are able to make different choices the next time.

suki44883

Well, Ro...my choices didn't change what happened with my daughter. She is still in hospital and I have not heard anything from them. I had 3 glasses of wine and was able to cry. Call that whatever you want. It's over now and I am no longer drinking any alcoholic beverages.

tiburon88

I would not necessarily call that a complete relapse. Hopefully, that craving for more won't come back though. You are obviously going a stressful time.

tib

suki44883

No, it was not a relapse. I don't feel badly about it and I do not have any desire to drink any more. Thanks, tiburon.

FightingIrish

What's that like?