introuble

I am going to go see my doctor tomorrow. My dh was amazed and irritated tonight that I had consumed 16 beers the other night. I know I need help. I was doing well until I started taking my irritation and frustration out on my children. Always comes back to me trying to protect my girls from my irritability.............................Oh, well, I failed. What a good bottle of wine. Go ahead, give me grief..........................

jsml1234

Hey introuble, what makes you say that?

sailorjohn

welcome!!!

Well, I would say that you're probably capable of handling that all by yourself.

Dee74

I could give you grief - but 'oh well I failed?'.
I don't think you're ready for it - maybe tomorrow.

Come back then and read this thread...then look at your kids...
Then tell me again how good that bottle of wine was.

D

introuble

Ahhhhh, it's 3 am and i'm sipping on my water to sober up for the morning trip to school. NOOOO, that bottle wastn't good. Like always, I was just going to get a little, no more than half, and now........it's all gone. I can't wait until I see my doc today. I don't want to feel this bad for much longer. I pray he can help me.......

tomvlll

whooooo boy can I relate to this. I was so in over my head this time 3 years ago
and this forum is where I came to get it out there.
I never, ever, never thought I could quit drinking. But here I am almost 3 years sober.
I just wish I could talk to you for a bit,and let you know there IS way out of that living hell known as alcohol addiction.

introuble

I was so tired last night. I cannot believe I was up so late! Now, I have to wonder, what did I do? I don't remember being up that late. I remember calling my husband and waking him up which I felt bad for. For a change, I hope he's on his way home. I don't do ALONE very well. And yes, I am doing a very good job of kicking myself in the butt for being so weak last night.

hughs dad

No grief introuble.... nothing but love and support. Honeslty, all of us are capable of falling off... Keep your head up...

introuble

Well, he's not on his way home. Going to Arkansas and who knows from there. Made an appt w/ the doc this morning. Tuesday I'm going in. Just praying that he's going to be able/willing to give me something for the anxiety. If it wasn't for that, I would have been good last night.

I have the house all to myself tonight. The girls are staying with a friend. Last night, I thought about getting totally wasted today, but the good thing....I don't want to now. No desire to drink at all. I hope it stays that way. Back on the water.

collinsmi

Giving yourself grief, feeling guilty, that helping you moderate or stop? Didn't work too well for me, although I must admit I tried to justify far more often.

You don't have to live this way.

hughs dad

Could it be that you are giving yourself something to create the anxiety? Booze? I would think that that longer you/we are off booze, the less anxiety we should feel.

introuble

I was first diagnosed w/ an anxiety disorder when I was 16. I was actually hospitalized for it for two weeks, took Xanax, the whole works. I haven't taken that for years, but I'm starting to think that since my husband started driver Long Haul I might need it again. Either that or Valium.

CarolD

Please use a lot of caution when taking benzo's.
They are highly addicting and if you drink
with some...if not all of them.....it can be dangerous.

How old are your daughters?
Could they call for help if you become ill?

introuble

Yes, they can call for help if I become ill. My girls are 8 and 10. I am NOT currently taking any benzo's though. Just the alcohol.

flutter

For what it's worth, I was also diagnosed with an anxiety disorder when I was around.. eh... 22, I was prescribed benzos, didn't like them, medicated with alcohol. Drank pretty much til almost 4 months ago at the age of 33, after I detoxed my anxiety went away. My counselor now puts in my chart that I have a 'history of anxiety' and 'history of alcohol dependence'. My anxiety left when I got sober, as did my insomnia that I thought I was medicating.

OZboy

nobody cares if you can't dance,well.
Just get up and dance!

TTOSBT

Welcome introuble!
Man, my kids used to irritate me! Funny thing is, I don't often get very irritated today. And I have only been sober 11 months. I am looking forward to the future.
I was one of the ones that no longer has debilitating anxiety. It took about 6 months but I only take an antidepressant now. And it works now!
I hope that you do go see the doctor. There is life without wine. If I can be happy and sober, anybody can! lol

Tommyh

If it wasn't for that, I would have been good last night.

you drink because you have a drinking problem
take responsibility for your drinking,don`t blame it on anything
if you didn`t have anxiety,you would probably drink anyway
thats what people with drinking problems do