Hi Everyone - I am back
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Hi Everyone - I am back
I have started this a few times but I can't articulate what I would like to say. I have been doing a lot of reading and am happy to see so many people doing well from when I first posted about 2 years ago.
I am starting over and am 23 days sober today. It feels good to be sober again and off the path of intentional destruction I was on.
Sara
I am starting over and am 23 days sober today. It feels good to be sober again and off the path of intentional destruction I was on.
Sara
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Thanks. I already am feeling so much better and the deep depression I was in was definitely being fueled by my alcohol use. In the last 23 days I have not spent one night crying in an empty bathtub considering suicide. I was so (I don't even know what the word that would be appropriate) that I cut myself long and deep enough to require 19 stitches. I was never a cutter before I drank and only did it when I drank.
I hid my drinking from everyone and my husband was the only one that knew. I came clean with my family members and they definitely did a "huh." I never drank in public, only at home alone. They basically just thought I was getting pretty chubby (60 pounds worth already down 12 pounds I guess that is a side-effect of not consuming 4k calories in alcohol a day).
I hid my drinking from everyone and my husband was the only one that knew. I came clean with my family members and they definitely did a "huh." I never drank in public, only at home alone. They basically just thought I was getting pretty chubby (60 pounds worth already down 12 pounds I guess that is a side-effect of not consuming 4k calories in alcohol a day).
Congrat's on 23 days! 
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Welcome back Sara.
Suicide is very serious business. I too contemplated suicide. The plan was to shoot myself. There were other issues not related to alcohol that drove me to that end. I sought help and got it from family, faith and MH professionals. I hope you have a good support system to help you deal with your depression.
Suicide is very serious business. I too contemplated suicide. The plan was to shoot myself. There were other issues not related to alcohol that drove me to that end. I sought help and got it from family, faith and MH professionals. I hope you have a good support system to help you deal with your depression.
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Originally Posted by KenL 
Welcome back Sara.
Suicide is very serious business. I too contemplated suicide. The plan was to shoot myself. There were other issues not related to alcohol that drove me to that end. I sought help and got it from family, faith and MH professionals. I hope you have a good support system to help you deal with your depression.
Suicide is very serious business. I too contemplated suicide. The plan was to shoot myself. There were other issues not related to alcohol that drove me to that end. I sought help and got it from family, faith and MH professionals. I hope you have a good support system to help you deal with your depression.
I am glad to hear you are doing better, Ken.
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