tommy79

I'm sitting in my pigsty of a room after a near 3-day bender in which I must have got through at least 9-10 bottles of wine. My phone's broken so I can't contact anyone. There are no good meetings near me on Saturday night and I don't have the energy to go to one further away.

My life is going absolutely nowhere. I'm so filled with regrets and realise how much I've changed since drink became an issue for me. Everything's narrowed down...I don't see as many friends, even my dreams (which usually keep me going) feel false and uninteresting...I don't even have a plan anymore. Just getting through the day. Not tempted to drink tonight but what does it matter anyway...

I think I'm just depressed from the huge amount of alcohol I've put into my system over the last 72 hours. Hopefully things will look better tomorrow. Thanks for reading.

CarolD

Be gentle with yourself for awhile.
It will take several days to de tox from that bender.

I too was depressed when I was an active alcoholic.
It's a miserable place to be...sorry to know your there.

Keep posting...many of us have won over alcohol
and so can you!....

tommy79

Thanks Carol. I need everything I can get right now just to keep me going so thanks.

Toomutch

Tommy it matters alot... If you don't drink tonight that is a plan. Start small - take it one minute at a time.

I want you to know you are not alone, everyone here has been in a similar situation.
10 and 1/2 months ago I never would have imagined that I would have come this far, the depression was terrible... It does get better Tommy, but only if you stick with it. I'm not saying it will be easy, but it is possible, we all started out on day one.

Do something special for yourself. Maybe rent a Comedy, or anything else that would comfort you. Drink alot of water and if you need to - call your doctor or go to the ER.
Do whatever it takes Tommy - and you will never have to feel like this again.

Keep posting here - you will find a tremendous amount of support.

tommy79

Thanks Toomutch. I don't think I need to see a doctor although my liver is hurting (don't have any other hepatitis symptoms and this has happened before, had a normal liver function test pretty recently so I'm not too worried on that front).

One minute at a time. Good thinking. And I think I might get off my a$$ and get to that meeting if I can summon up the strength.

All the best,

Tom

least

If you stop drinking now, this can be the last time you have to go thru this misery. Take it one day at a time and just don't drink for today. You can do this. :ghug3

tommyk

Hopefully things will look better tomorrow.

Things will look GREAT if you want them too.

Stay off the booze.