TheMaster

Well, I made it through 2 weekends without drinking.

Amazing as it sounds, I feel real positive, for the 1st time in ages. I didn't even feel this when I quit during the summer.

Probably because I got sort of wrapped up in a girl, which was the same reason I started back drinking. Things fell apart & I stopped caring.

This time, I am not seeing anyone or looking for anyone, although I have someone I can go see to have my "oil" changed, on occasion...

So, age 40, sober, I figure I last until maybe 65 at the latest. 1,300 weeks to go.

least

I like to look forward to my increasing sobriety, but have to live it one day at a time, as I can't wrap my mind around the concept of 'forever'. All the best to you at beating this addiction!:ghug3

Pelican

Hey TM,

Thanks for the update. Congrats on 2 weekends sober.

Sounds like you are doing it for the right reasons this time: YOU. I know I am doing this for me. It's all about me. Everyone else is just reaping the benefits.

LOL on the "oil change". Got me thinking of my mechanic in a whole new light!

TheMaster

Yeah, she does a good-enough job of changing my oil, so to speak...

But the drinking urge has subsided. I really don't understand how sometimes there is no urge, while other times, there is a huge urge to do it.

I don't know, I just feel like a dark cloud is lifting... The anger is also going away, which was almost the basis for my existence. I seem to stay in an anger-state, when drinking.

Not all day, but the temper is much more quick-fire... I haven't felt any of it, last week or so.

Is this what being happy is?

YouveGotStyleKi

We have two different drugs of choice, but I'm wondering the same... Is this what true happiness is? I haven't known my self since I was about 12 years old. But I know the feeling. I was always an angry, violent person in active addiction. Only recently have I felt that being lifted from me. I actually felt a certain way, and I got scared. I called my sponsor, and he said, "It seems to me that you're experiencing joy for the first time."

Also, quit looking so far into the future! You can only do it one day at a time, because today is ALL WE HAVE! We could all die tomorrow, the world could end tomorrow, who knows. Today, all we can do is save ourselves. Try to keep that in mind.

Congrats on the sobriety!

CarolD

Thanks for checking in TM..

CAPTAINZING2000

I read this and was reminded of 2 stories I read when, I first got into AA

The Station

By Robert hastings

http://www.thestationessay.com/

Another one came to my mind as well

1000 marbles

By Jeffery Davis

1000 Marbles !



Seems like, these two short stories sum up anything I might add to you post