psuge47

This morning is day 21. When I first came into this I told myself I needed to go 30 days with no booze, I am almost there. The thing is, is now I am feeling like once I hit the 30 day mark that it may be OK to go have a few as long as I stay under control. Problem is that once I have 1, I go until the bar closes and get completely hammered. I plan on only having a few but once the trains starts rolling its game over.

The other part of me is saying you been working out, losing some LB's, feeling amazing, kicking ass at work, re focused, no hangovers so why would I want to go back to it? I dont know why, maybe because its what I have always done. Maybe I am having an issue realizing that this should be something I Need to do for more than 30 days.

dont know, Just venting a little.

Pixy1

You should read the thread started by ericamay "Needing some guidance and support please "

It covers what you have posted and makes a lot of sense, Best wishes, Pixy

tommyk

Realize that your disease will definitely try to make you think illogically.

Your disease will do most anything to convince you it is okay to drink again.

Perhaps right now would be a good time to extend your goal to 60 days?

Then take it one day at a time with your new life.

AcceptingChange

hey p,
wel, i have the same question, and i'm flirting with feelings that i'm in control. but i'm asking myself a few questions.
1) What am i hoping to find in going back?
2) The last couple years of active drinking i wasn't able to control it, and it took more to work to achieve the high i wanted.

i'm not seeing much upside in going back, compared to the confidence you feel now. be your inner drill sergeant, and don't let yourself get lazy and relaxed.

hope you succeed.

CarolD

I think you might want to consider this information
before you return to drinking....

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

Glad to see you have made progress...

doorknob

I could have swore I posted on this thread and then realized this one's in the alki forum. I thought my mind was playin' tricks...

Congrat's on 21 days, bro!

CarolD

As this thread is a duplicate of on in Newcomers
and duplicates are not allowed on SR

This thread is closed.

Here is the link to the other thread

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...what-next.html

Thanks everyone for sharing...