hughs dad

Today was / is day 8. Going to a meeting tonight at 8pm. I can honestly say I wanted to drink badly today. I just went to the gym and worked out and feel better now, but I definitely wanted to drink. What's interesting is that the emotion I felt was raw anger. I was very mad. I didn't know at what I was just very mad. I knew that a drink would make the anger go away. Not only go away, but actually make me happy.

That is what my ****** up mind does. 8 days ago I felt terrible and would have given anything to be sober, now my body is ready to do the exact thing that made me sick.

I am not going to drink today! Going to a meeting! And going to eat a huge dinner!!!

soarinhigh

Good for you!!! I got that anger alot the first couple weeks but now 24 days into it, its dwindling and less powerful. There was no reason for me to be so mad, it came outta nowhere. Then I became pissed that I was pissed. It will get better. Be strong and dont try to figure it out. I learned to say it is what it is and let it pass. Good luck

Texasblind

Getting my appetite back was a big hurdle and confidence builder. Good for you!! Keep it up.

Rowan

I'm so glad to see that you are still here with us, and that you are now 8 days sober. I remember, in early sobriety, feeling intense anger, sadness, depression, joy .. emotions I don't recall ever having experienced to such a degree.

It's normal - and it reassured me immensely to be told that by other recovering folk.

I've learned that cravings actually pass quite quickly - you did the right thing by distracting yourself and going to the gym. And a meeting tonight is a great idea. I can't recall - did you get a sponsor yet or join a home group? Get as involved as you can, Hugh's Dad!

And REMEMBER what it was like when you made your way to this site. Think of the state of mind you were in, the despair and hopelessness. Go back and reread your first post.

Keep us posted - we do care - very much.

jimhere

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