Margarita in the fridge
Margarita in the fridge
So I've been dealing really well (I think) being sober, for about 2 weeks now. About 1/2 hour ago I was trying to find some salsa in the fridge and noticed there was a pre-mixed bottle of Margarita (one serving bottle), and my head started to spiral.... "if I drank that.. would I maybe catch a mini buzz?..." That is the first time since I quit that I can remember where I heard that damn alcohol voice in my head. There is no other liquor in this house, it was poured down the drain when I went to the ER. That botte was missed. It's hard to be new here and read about relapses, 'slip ups' etc.. You guys are wonderful and so forgiving, but really... it's almost permission, and yes that's my head doing it's alcoholism thing again. Makes me sick to think I even pondered drinking that when I still have a band aid on to cover my IV line from 2 weeks ago. I want to punch alcohol in the face! Have a safe Saturday all. I'm gonna pour that sucker down the drain and take a hot shower!
p.s. "I want to punch alcohol in the face." Made me laugh.
I just get into imaginary arguments with it. At the supermarket for instance. One of these days I'm going to slip up and vocalize my internal dialogue. I can just imagine the stares I'll get passing the bottles of wine and shouting, "No! I'm not going to be your friend! Shut up!"
I just get into imaginary arguments with it. At the supermarket for instance. One of these days I'm going to slip up and vocalize my internal dialogue. I can just imagine the stares I'll get passing the bottles of wine and shouting, "No! I'm not going to be your friend! Shut up!"
Fantastic Flutter! I wish I had done what you did! I found a bottle I had hidden in the mess of my closet and drank it. Just didn't even stop to think, It was freakish. Threw away three weeks, but even worse, through away the hope I had.
Thanks all! And yes Slvr, I did pour it down the sink. I waited until my hubby got home so that I didn't have to try to defend that I didn't actually drink it and throw it away, but it's gone! He did ask me if I was tempted, and I admitted that I had some weird thoughts, but I HATE margaritas... so he asked me, well if it was a bottle of rum.. vodka, would you have been more so? Heck ya! but it wasn't. Tempted, of course I would have been.. would I have drank it had it been more of my poison, I hope not, I don't think so, but luckily that wasn't what I was faced with.
Karen, you threw nothing away, I have about 100 bottles of vodka that can admit to you that they thought they were my last one :P You can do it, you want to... and you will! I believe in you!!
And about punching alcohol in the face.. I have come to the habit of giving liquor stores and bars a dirty look when I drive by... like $&%^ YOU!!! It's the little things that get us by LOL. Today is day 14!! YAY!
Karen, you threw nothing away, I have about 100 bottles of vodka that can admit to you that they thought they were my last one :P You can do it, you want to... and you will! I believe in you!!
And about punching alcohol in the face.. I have come to the habit of giving liquor stores and bars a dirty look when I drive by... like $&%^ YOU!!! It's the little things that get us by LOL. Today is day 14!! YAY!
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