Grace
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Grace
Chip's thread got me thinking.
As some of you know, I'm in step 9 and have been making amends as I can.
What has blown me away is how quick some are to forgive and listen to me. So far, all of my amends have been extremely receptive and forgiving, they completely understand what I'm apologizing for and why. I was absolutely petrified of doing this, but now I look forward to these meetings. It's almost like purging myself. I have reconnected with people I haven't spoken to in 2 years. My producing partner was someone I completely blew off in addiction, and this was my career. He and I are now talking about collaborating again.
In short, the grace of the HP and the grace of humanity has reinspired me. At a time when I am incredibly vulnerable, a cover of grace came upon me and I was blessed to have it.
As some of you know, I'm in step 9 and have been making amends as I can.
What has blown me away is how quick some are to forgive and listen to me. So far, all of my amends have been extremely receptive and forgiving, they completely understand what I'm apologizing for and why. I was absolutely petrified of doing this, but now I look forward to these meetings. It's almost like purging myself. I have reconnected with people I haven't spoken to in 2 years. My producing partner was someone I completely blew off in addiction, and this was my career. He and I are now talking about collaborating again.
In short, the grace of the HP and the grace of humanity has reinspired me. At a time when I am incredibly vulnerable, a cover of grace came upon me and I was blessed to have it.
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Great work, Tex! And thanks for posting about this.
If at any time you're working this step, you come cross someone who still bears a grudge - it can happen - just know that you are doing the right thing, and that's what really counts.
You give me courage. Thanks.
If at any time you're working this step, you come cross someone who still bears a grudge - it can happen - just know that you are doing the right thing, and that's what really counts.
You give me courage. Thanks.
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Originally Posted by TTOSBT 
I am so terrfified of Step 9!
I was/am too. It had to be done. Sooner or later I will run into someone who doesn't want to hear it (my ex wife comes to mind) but I will power through and deal. It is a relief though. Being absolutely humble and apologize. It was kinda nice to take away my pride. Sounds stupid, but it was a purging, a fresh start.
I sincerely mean every apology I make, but it is a gift to me as well.
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It's about Mercy
thank God, step 9 is not about justice, it's about mercy, it is about freedom, it is about grace that translates into power when sought out in earnest. Every ammend I owed was a block between myself-the world-and God. Any resistance to step 9 can be traced back to reservations or lurking notions from step one.
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