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Thanks to all of you that have sent me pm's showing concern it means alot to me, i just got home yesterday after having to stay out longer than usual at work . Had to make up for the month on the islands, not cheap down there.
As far as my sobriety is concerned i am sober but still having problems connecting to my higher power and changing my thoughts on what, or who my higher power actually is. Was always taught that it was God (a old man with a staff and white hair and beard) or Jesus (a young man with a beard) and that if you did certain things you would burn in hell or if you were good you would live in heaven.In other words i was scared of God pretty much my whole upbringing, just my ideas of what a higher power was to me back then and what i was taught..Silly huh ? oh well ..
Take care,
John
As far as my sobriety is concerned i am sober but still having problems connecting to my higher power and changing my thoughts on what, or who my higher power actually is. Was always taught that it was God (a old man with a staff and white hair and beard) or Jesus (a young man with a beard) and that if you did certain things you would burn in hell or if you were good you would live in heaven.In other words i was scared of God pretty much my whole upbringing, just my ideas of what a higher power was to me back then and what i was taught..Silly huh ? oh well ..
Take care,
John
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Just to clarify a little, i do not believe there is a God that is waiting for me to screw up so he can punish me, the above is just a little peek into what was drilled in my head as a young man. Makes it really tuff to grasp the concept of a higher being in another way.
I guess my higher power , if i had to choose right now, would be AA and this site.
Take care,
John
I guess my higher power , if i had to choose right now, would be AA and this site.
Take care,
John
i am sober but still having problems connecting to my higher power and changing my thoughts on what. Was always taught that it was God (a old man with a staff and white hair and beard) or Jesus (a young man with a beard) and that if you did certain things you would burn in hell or if you were good you would live in heaven. In other words i was scared of God pretty much my whole upbringing..
Silly huh?
Silly huh?
Just hang on. Bring the body, the mind will follow.
Just to clarify a little, i do not believe there is a God that is waiting for me to screw up so he can punish me, the above is just a little peek into what was drilled in my head as a young man. Makes it really tuff to grasp the concept of a higher being in another way.
I guess my higher power , if i had to choose right now, would be AA and this site.
Take care,
John
I guess my higher power , if i had to choose right now, would be AA and this site.
Take care,
John
What finally worked for me was to set that God aside and put the HP thing in an entirely new perspective. What worked for me was the concept of electricity, energy. It is more powerful than I, I can not fully explain it, I have some idea how it works, I know that our bodies utilize a form of electricity/energy to keep our hearts pumping and muscles moving, and it is pretty much everywhere in the universe. Every living thing needs and uses it. I figured since it is more powerful than I and there was much I did not know about it, that it could possibly be powerful enough to help relieve me of my alcoholism.
With that simple start I have developed a little more sophisticated picture of a HP and have ever gotten to where I do not discount the God of my childhood anymore although that is not my primary HP.
Sorry if this sounds stupid but it worked for me.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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John...
my God is the childhood Sunday School
God of love and forgiveness.
I loved going to sing and hear the storeis
I'm sad to know your past experiences were not so positive.
Thanks for checking in ..
my God is the childhood Sunday School
God of love and forgiveness.
I loved going to sing and hear the storeis
I'm sad to know your past experiences were not so positive.
Thanks for checking in ..
You know John perhaps what Ebbie said to Bill may help.
Worked for that alcoholic Bill W., why can't it work for you?
Quote Bill again if I may:
I made this far harder for my self, like Bill did originally, and got no where until I did as Ebbie suggested to Bill, I simply became "willing to beleive". I had no concept or real understanding of my HP then, but I was "willing to beleive". It was a start.
My friend suggested what then seemed a novel idea. He said, "Why don't you choose your own conception of God?"
Quote Bill again if I may:
It was only a matter of being willing to believe in a Power greater than myself. Nothing more was required of me to make my beginning
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