TryingSoHard

Y'all, I am struggling right now. I have been SUPER busy all day today and have felt pretty good. I thought today would be smooth sailing because I had stuff to keep me busy from literally 6:30 a.m. to 10 p.m. Well guess what? At about 10:01 that little voice kicked in. And I've been arguing back and forth with it for an hour and 20 minutes now.

5 minutes ago, it almost won.

If I can hang tight for 10 more minutes, my husband will be home and my window of opportunity for drinking will be closed.

WHY WHY WHY is that "drinking/addict voice" so damn persuasive?? How can I be so rational and so irrational at the same time?!?!

*pulling my hair out*

ANGELINA243

Why not come hang out in chat for the next 10 minutes--we are talking about recovery. That little voice can seem brutal at times--especially in early sobriety. I'm not sure how long you have been sober--but those feelings will pass...just don't give in--no matter what those voices tell you. I've been there too. You are not alone.

nandm

Hope the voice did not win. Either way don't give up.....alcoholism can be beat.

CarolD

I just got back and do hope you continued
your sobriety.

least

PLease don't let that obnoxious voice win! And you can be rational and irrational at the same time because humankind is both rational and irrational. We are logical and illogical both.

Don't pay attention to that little voice or you could lose the sober time you've earned so far.

:ghug

Coolmummy

I had the same problem last night - it's a bugger isn't it! Tell it to go away anmd bother someone who cares!

Nasty piece of work that voice eh?

hugs

sas

Boleo

Abstinence ALONE is the single leading cause of relapse.

You MUST treat root causes as well (anxiety, frustration, guilt & despair).

scoob

If that voice wasn't loud and persuasive, we wouldn't be where we are.

All I can say is treat it like a bad ghost in the house and say "go away creep, you don't scare me!"

Hope

Don't look further then the next moment.
You can stay sober for 5 minutes or even one minute at a time, that is all it takes. A bunch of moments that make up your day and when you fall asleep, you'll feel proud that you did not give in and drink.

Just for the moment, you can get through it.

TryingSoHard

No time to post right now - real quick - yes, I stayed sober.

Thanks, y'all. More in a little while.

*hugs*

dancinggirl

TSH: so glad you won!!! Just remember, that voice is loud...but you know what's louder? Regret.

Toomutch

I just knew you wouldn't drink. :ghug3

Tazman53

TSH glad you didn't drink, congrats. How are you staying sober? When I first got sober it was suggested to me that I spend at least as much time working on my recovery as I did drinking. Working on my recovery as often as I drank kept that voice silent 95% of the time and when it did start to bug me I simply picked up the phone and called one of many other alcoholics in recovery I know.

I found that talking to another recovering alcoholic when the urges hit me was like hitting the urge with an A bomb, going to a meeting was like hitting it with an H bomb.

My recovery has involved learning who I was, who I am, and how I can change to make me into a me that is comfortable in my own skin. My recovery also has another major part to it that never fails even when all the others might, and that is in helping other alcoholics to get and stay sober.

I spent a lot of years "Staying busy" to where I would not drink. what happened was I would run out of things to do, get bored and drink, or I would get bored of staying busy and drink. What I should have been doing was staying busy working on my recovery, instead of staying busy to simply not drink.

Eclipse

Hey TSH, good for you for working through it. Its a struggle, but you will feel so much better for it. Be proud of yourself! I start feeling the anxiety and come here and read and I calm right down...keep doing that!